I hope a blog might help. I've tried them before but they always seem to get a little confusing because my alters will take over at times. Maybe that's ok though. Michaela is gone today, spending time with her Nana. I've liked the quietness but I feel lost without her around. It gives me too much time to think. Not having something to do every minute...it makes time drag and I'd rather just fastfoward sometimes, to when I can sleep. I'm just feeling very alone today. Without Michaela here, I start to realize how really cut off I am. I don't have the friends that I used to have and I feel like there aren't any options except to stay in. Today, I have cleaned house and done laundry...two big things I've had on my checklist that it feels good to finish! Mike should be home soon with Michaela, so I think I'll settle down and draw for the free time I have left. I'm thinking it will take me away to a calmer place.