You are not alone. My sa was not the same situation but a lot of our experiences are exactly the same. I read your blog and felt like you could have been talking about me in a lot of ways. I too was 9 going on 19 because of my body development and hated it. I too turn to food for comfort. I too became a "people pleaser" and I too am now dealing with aging and disabilities.
I just wanted you to know that you are not alone in your experiences or in your struggle to deal with what's been done to you. I admire your courage for being here, and want you to know that I'll listen whenever you want.
Oh and by the way, I too live in the midwest, though far enough south we rarely see snow, just ice.
And about the air matress thing, I have a suggestion. If you go to walmart they have what are called raised air beds. they're at least 24" high and a lot more comfortable than regular air matresses. Some even have pillow tops. They're also fairly reasonably priced too. I had one in my guest room for awhile and my best friend and her husband spent a week with me last year. Both of them are disabled. Her because of Diabetes and knee replacements and he because he broke his back years ago in an auto accident. And they said it was almost better than sleeping in their own bed at home. Just a thought....
Anyway keep up the good work, and remember if you need someone I'm here.