Blessed1984

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  • Birthday 09/27/1984

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  1. I have two idiotic things that stand out to me the most: 1.While in hospital for PTSD reaction/ Su*cidal Ideation "I know horrible things happened to you but that was a long time ago and you have your whole future ahead of you. You wouldn't want to let this ruin that so now it's time to move on. The past is in the past, you can't dwell on it forever." by psychiatrist who was supposed to help me. My all time most annoying comment - said by intake nurse at hospital immediately following my assault simply because I wasn't sure I wanted to file a report but I was suffering from injuries from the assault and this is the only hospital around for 45 miles: 2. "Look, you have two options here; you can either give me the address where this happened so I can make the report or you can find somewhere else to treat you." I was therefore forced to give a false address. Jen
  2. Life Ain't Always Beautiful by Gary Allan Life ain't always beautiful Sometimes it's just plain hard Life can knock you down, it can break your heart Life ain't always beautiful You think you're on your way And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day But the struggle makes you stronger And the changes make you wise And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time [chorus] No,life aint always beautiful Tears will fall sometimes Life aint always beautiful But it's a beautiful ride Life aint always beautiful Some days I miss your smile I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles And I wish for just one minute I could see your pretty face Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way But the struggles makes me stronger And the changes make me wise And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time No, life aint always beautiful But I know I'll be fine Hey, life aint always beautiful But its a beautiful ride What a beautiful ride Lessons Learned by Carrie Underwood There's some things that I regret, Some words I wish had gone unsaid, Some starts, That had some better endings, Been some bad times I've been through, Damage I cannot undo. Some things, I wish I could do all all over again, But it don't really matter, When life gets that much harder, It makes you that much stronger, Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were, Lessons learned. And every tear that had to fall from my eyes, And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night, Every change, life has thrown me, I'm thankful, for every break in my heart, I'm grateful, for every scar, Some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were lessons learned. There's mistakes that I have made, Some chances I just threw away, Some roads, I never should have taken, Been some signs I didn't see, Hearts that I hurt needlessly, Some wounds, That I wish I could have one more chance to mend, But it don't make no difference, The past can't be rewritten, You get the life you're given, Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were, Lessons learned. And every tear that had to fall from my eyes, And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night, Every change, life has thrown me, I'm thankful, for every break in my heart, I'm grateful, for every scar, Some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were lessons learned. And all the things that break you, Are the things that make you strong! You can't change the past, Cause it's gone. And you just gotta move on, Because it's all Lessons learned. And every tear that had to fall from my eyes, From everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night, From every change, life has thrown me. I'm thankful, for every break in my heart, I'm grateful, for every scar, Some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were lessons learned, Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned, But there were lessons learned, Lessons learned. Lessons learned. I'm A Survivor by Reba McEntire I was born 3 months too early The doctor gave me 30 days But I must have had my mama's will And God's amazing grace I guess I'll keep on livin Even if this love's to die for Cuz your bags are packed And I ain't cryin Your walkin out and I'm not tryin To change your mind Cuz I was born to be The baby girl without a chance A victim of circumstance The one who oughta give up But she's just too hard headed A single mom Who works 2 jobs Who loves her kids and never stops With gentle hands And the heart of a fighter I'm a survivor I don't believe in self pity It only brings you down May be the queen of broken hearts But I don't hide behind the crown When the deck is stacked against me I just play a different game My roots are planted in the past And though my life is changing fast Who I am is who I wanna be The baby girl without a chance A victim of circumstance The one who oughta give up But she's just too hard headed A single mom Who works 2 jobs Who loves her kids and never stops With gentle hands And the heart of a fighter I'm a survivor Oh a single mom Who works 2 jobs Who loves her kids and never stops With gentle hands And the heart of a fighter I'm a survivor But I must have had my mama's will And God's amazing grace (I'm a survivor) Holes In the Floor of Heaven by Steve Wariner * Helped me after losing my Mom* One day shy of eight years old Grandma passed away I was a broken hearted little boy, blowing out that birthday cake How I cried when the sky let go with a cold and lonesome rain Momma smiled said don't be sad child Grandma's watchin you today 'Cause there's holes in the floor of Heaven and her tears are pourin' down that's how you know she's watchin' wishin' she could be here now And sometimes if you're lonely just remember she can see there's holes in the floor of Heaven and she's watchin' over you and me Seasons come and seasons go nothin' stays the same I grew up fell in love met a girl who took my name Year by year we made a life in this sleepy little town I thought we'd grow old together Lord I sure do miss her now But there's holes in the floor of Heaven and her tears are pourin' down that's how you know she's watchin' wishin' she could be here now and sometimes when I'm lonely I remember she can see there's holes in the floor of Heaven and she's watchin' over you and me Well my little girl is 23 I walk her down the aisle it's a shame her mom can't be here now to see her lovely smile They throw the rice I catch her eye as the rain starts comin' down she takes my hand says daddy don't be sad 'cause I know momma's watchin' now And there's holes in the floor of Heaven and her tears are pourin down that's how you know she's watchin' wishin' she could be here now and sometimes when I'm lonely I remember she can see there's holes in the floor of Heaven and she's watchin' over you and me Watchin' over you and me Watchin' over you and me Watchin' over you and me Face Down by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus *** May Trigger*** Hey girl you know you drive me crazy one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around I see what's going down. Cover up with make up in the mirror tell yourself it's never gonna happen again you cry alone and then he swears he loves you. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence If you wade around forever you will surely drown I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say your right again, say your right again heed my lecture Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down a new life she has. Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough.. Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough.. One day she will tell you that she has had enough its coming round again. Do you feel like a man, when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has. Do you feel like a man, when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has. Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
  3. Crash and Burn by Savage Garden When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone When you feel all alone And a loyal friend is hard to find You're caught in a one way street With the monsters in your head When hopes and dreams are far away and You feel like you can't face the day Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone 'Cause there has always been heartache and pain And when it's over you'll breathe again You'll breath again When you feel all alone And the world has turned its back on you Give me a moment please To tame your wild wild heart Let me be the one you call If you jump I'll break your fall Lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart If you need to crash then crash and burn You're not alone Wasted by Carrie Underwood Standing at the back door She tried to make it fast One tear hit the hard wood It fell like broken glass She said sometimes love slips away And you just can't get it back Let's face it For one split second She almost turned around But that would be like pouring rain drops Back into a cloud So she took another step and said I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Another glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday Gotta face it. Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing The still of the morning, the color of the night I ain't spending no more time Wasted She kept drivin' along Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear For the first time in a while Hey, yeah, Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing The still of the morning, the color of the night I ain't spending no more time Wasted Oh, I don't wanna' spend my life jaded Waiting to wake up one day and find That I've let all these years go by Wasted Yeah, yeah Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing The still of the morning, the color of the night I ain't spending no more time Wasted The Middle by Jimmy Eat World *** May T*** Hey, Don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out, Or looked down on. Just try your best, Try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves When you're away. [Chorus] It just takes some time, Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine, Everything, everything will be alright. (alright) Hey, You know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own, (on your own) So don't buy in. Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough (good enough) For someone else. [Chorus x2] Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out, (feel left out) Or looked down on. Just do your best, (just do your best) Do everything you can. (do everything you can) And don't you worry what their bitter hearts (bitter hearts) Are gonna say. [Chorus x2] Some People Change by Mongomery Gentry *** May T*** His old man was a rebel yeller: Bad boy to the bone. He'd say: "Can't trust that other fella," He'd judge 'em by the tone of their skin. He was raised to think like his Dad: Narrow mind full of hate. On the road to no-where fast, Till the Grace of God got in the way. Then he saw the Light an' hit his knees an' cried an' said a prayer: Rose up a brand new man; left the old one right there. Here's to the strong; thanks to the brave. Don't give up hope: some people change. Against all odds, against the grain, Love finds a way: some people change. She was born with her mother's habit: You could say: "It's in her blood." She hates that she's gotta have it: As she fills her glass up. An she'd love to kill that bottle, But all she can think about, Is a, a better life, a second chance, An' everyone she's letting down. She throws that bottle down. Here's to the strong; thanks to the brave. Don't give up hope: some people change. Against all odds, against the grain, Love finds a way: some people change. Thank God for those who make it: Let them be the Light. (Let them be the light) (Some people change.) Here's to the strong; thanks to the brave. Don't give up hope: some people change. Against all odds, against the grain, Love finds a way: some people change. Some people change. (Some people change) No Reins by Rascal Flatts She left that loser in a dust cloud Heart in his hand, chin on the ground Cried her last tear for that clown She can see a little clearer now She said, "Oh, oh, I gotta go and find me" Oh, oh she found the strength to break free CHORUS Like a painted wild mustang Flyin' out across the open range Finally gets to live her life that way No fear, no fences, nobody - no reins No Reins All she's ever felt is held back She says, "It's kinda nice to hear myself laugh" She's gonna do a lot more of that She's makin' plans and makin' tracks She said, "Oh, oh I gotta go and find me" Oh, oh she found the strength to break free Repeat Chorus Oh-oh she's learnin' how to let go Oh-oh which ever way the wind blows Oh-oh she's learnin' how to let go (learnin' how to let go) Repeat Chorus No reins