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Expected Worse But Got Much Better

Posted by LittleOne15 in LittleOne15's Blog, 01 April 2015 · 4 views

Another meeting for work with my ex-boyfriend in the room again tonight. The meeting was about 7 hours long. I am pleased to say that it went much better than I had hoped or expected. I couldn't tolerate his proximity all the time, but after so many days without the constant reminders I was able to cope reasonably well.
I put forth a lot of effort...


Watch for these four roof repair rip-offs

Posted by AltheaBoston in AltheaBoston's Blog, 31 March 2015 · 4 views

With winter comes roof damage. With spring comes roof repair scams. While reputable roofers are busy inspecting, repairing, and replacing roofs for those in the community who have called them for help, roofing scammers are going door-to-door soliciting their services to those who haven’t. Angie’s list warns homeowners to keep an eye out for th...


Witness Debriefing

Posted by Linnaeus in Survivorship, 31 March 2015 · 4 views

I was noticing how fortunate I am and if being a little removed was normal there certainly is question about the load I was under. Repetitive trauma I survived leaves short term memory and other effects. Other stressors are part of current conditions.
I looked up witness debriefing and found "Complex Criminal Litigation" by Jimmy Gurule. Feder...


It was not my fault

Posted by gritgirl in gritgirl's Blog, 31 March 2015 · 9 views

This is a joy now to write but I cried and cried in therapy. I am finding it really hard to see myself as a child. My defense was to believe that I was a good girl who was doing the right thing and I felt my worth in being needed by my father. It's easier to believe that than the reality. I can see that now. I am so determined to be very kind to myself.


new t

Posted by PugLover in Just me, 31 March 2015 · 24 views

Things have been getting a little more rough lately so I decided to try one last t.  I've had so many bad experiences before that I had given up.  But I think this one will be okay.  Maybe even better than okay.  Although it sucks afterwards I got a text from the husband saying he's being transferred in 5 months and not 10 like we had...



Posted by alexis_84 in alexis_84's Blog, 31 March 2015 · 38 views

So I have an appointment in a week with my gyno- to get tested. To make sure I'm okay.  If reality hasn't hit by then, I don't know when it will.
I also reached out to a T in my area. I couldn't bring myself to call so I emailed her office. I'm hoping I hear back soon. I can only talk to my best friend so much, and she doesn't really know what...


Therapy's Toll

Posted by Im_No_Victim in Im_No_Victim's Blog, 30 March 2015 · 38 views

I see a therapist because I recently moved back to my mom's house, and she was worried about the stress leaving my friends and familiar settings would cause me. The move's been fine, honestly, so I started using the therapy sessions to talk about the rape and the effects it's having on me. I'm functional, but my nightmares, sleeplessness, flashbacks and o...


Toxic Anger Smashing Room

Posted by intrepidshe in Intrepid She, 30 March 2015 · 131 views

I have two purposes in writing this posting. The first purpose is to explain the struggle I'm having with toxic anger and it's relationship to SH. My second purpose is to make a list of the reasons for the anger.
For the last week or two I have been keenly aware of the amount of anger still inside me. Much of it has been released. I'm not...


Spring cleaning turned into trip down nightmare lane

Posted by Brian09 in Brian09's Blog, 30 March 2015 · 24 views

Since spring is here, I though I might as well do some spring cleaning. Took out some spring clothing out of the attic and took most of my heavy coats up.
As I was going through the clothes I might toss out because they were out of style and the clothes I was going to keep, I ran into a some very old clothes. I found the clothes from when I was 6.
I didn'...


How did i let it happen - tw

Posted by redballon in How did i let it happen , 30 March 2015 · 32 views

Not sure how i manage to go from being a vicitm to being charged with a crime in 10 mins :( 
After my CSA i thought i was just getting things back on track i started uni and lived away from home. 
Thought things were going ok till a week or so ago when i let it happen. A friend of one house mate decided to have sex with me, not tha...


We are Warriors!

Posted by sarahangel in sarahangel's Blog, 30 March 2015 · 15 views

We are all broken and damaged, and not quite fixed yet.

A lot of us have gone through hell!

But We came back, We came back STRONGER!!



My life is not easier - teacher's remark on miners

Posted by Juditha in Juditha's Blog, 30 March 2015 · 36 views

I was doing quite well today. That was until a teacher remarked to me and some friends that our problems are so minor compared to the problems of the miners in Germinal. They nearly starved to death and were therefore forced to accept jobs that barely paid.

Yes. Those miners had a very hard time. But you know nothing of my life and you cannot just assum...


Out and About

Posted by Zenobia in Zenobia's Blog, 30 March 2015 · 17 views

Woke up early this morning to travel for a work trip. Was able to get a fair bit of work done on the train, including a grant proposal that is due tomorrow, so I feel good about being productive.
As I was getting off the train, a man spoke to me and it turned out we were headed to the same conference. We shared a taxi to the venue together and had...


No room for complaint

Posted by SilverandBlue in Learning not to Remember, 29 March 2015 · 31 views

Life is good. I know that. But it's also stressful now. Maybe more than before despite having a new source of incredible support. And it makes me feel SO incredibly selfish and spoiled. My fiancé tries to help me, he holds me when I'm just so exhausted and stressed I can't do anything and yet I feel awful. I keep getting sick, I keep getting triggere...


Animal intelligence

Posted by Qrious in Q's questing, 29 March 2015 · 48 views

Visited my godson this weekend. He is now two.

We saw him two months ago; since then, he's learned to recite numbers and has started to grasp what they mean; learned a lot of new words; started putting sentences together; started to assert his will; become capable of concentrating for good chunks of time.

Most startlingly, he has begun to negotiate. he...


Mrs Lloyds Coffee Morning. TWs

Posted by rolleston76 in rolleston76's Blog, 29 March 2015 · 25 views

It was Christmas 1982 and my family had made its usual descent. All 3 of my older sisters were home, and so was my Father (who normally lived elsewhere). I was 14.  It was about 3 years after I had told my Mother and one of my sisters that the neighbor, Mr Lloyd, had raped me. My mother had not believed a word of it and chided me most thoroughly, my...


I quit my cleaning job..sorry about the rant

Posted by pancake in pancake's Blog, 28 March 2015 · 43 views

a few days ago  i got a text from the boss of one of the cleanin companies i work for. It said 'you are bang out of order for starting work at four, i will see you tonight'. I am meant to clean at 6 but for the first month both the other cleaner and i did from half four and no one seemed to mind. afew days ago i did two days early because i was off o...


Substance Abuse pt2

Posted by _melissamorello in _melissamorello's Blog, 27 March 2015 · 22 views

Hey everyone. I'm so sorry I haven't wrote much lately. It's been hecka crazy. I know the last entry I said I was gonna pick up with how to detect substance abuse if you think someone you love has a problem, and how to deal with it. Now I'm not a doctor. I'm just a survivor who has been through substance abuse, and thankfully had lived to tell and help ot...


Strange bonding moment with a co-worker

Posted by expiredsanity in expiredsanity's Blog, 26 March 2015 · 29 views

At work a few days ago, I was having a conversation with a woman named D about our pasts. She's in her early sixties and she had already told me that she didn't get along with her mother either. She told me that her mother hated her and abused her. She told me that when she was 11 she walked in on her older sister attempting suicide. I guess maybe knowing...


Ugly Beautiful (TW)

Posted by lisak2 in Safe to Speak, 26 March 2015 · 58 views

I'm not happy with how the psychiatrist visit I spoke about in my last entry panned out. I'm not proud of how I handled it. I'm riddled with shame, actually. I wouldn't have asked for it, but maybe it's what I needed. Or, at least, as I've always said in the past...maybe it happened now for a reason. Regardless, as I always try to tell myself, I can see...

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