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daddy

18 June 2013
Posted by j3t3  in a rollercoaster to acceptance
when i think about you i pray that you have god in your heart. i dont want to lose you, but i'm so tired of seeing you deteriorate. i'm so afraid daddy. will you bere when i get married to walk me down the isle? will you be around when i become a mom? or teach my kids about lemon juice? daddy i understand if you have to go but i dont want...
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Investments

18 June 2013
Posted by bellachai  in bellachai's Blog
I woke up this morning thinking about how much I invested 'me' in those who I love/loved and care about. I realized that over the years I overextended myself to the point of becoming bankrupted financially, physically, mentally and emotionally.

Now there is no 'me' anymore. Just a heartbroken empty shell physically exhausted,...
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June 18th, 2013

18 June 2013
Posted by caitlinchristakos12  in caitlinchristakos12's Blog
At ten o'clock last night I didn't think I would live to see another day. My hope and strength was just not there anymore. I thank my mom who just knew by my facebook status I wasn't having a good day and called me and talked me out of it. I think about it now and I feel silly to think I would take my life away with all these special...
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Posted by GettingBetter  in GettingBetter's Blog
"I can feel my mood changing... and I'm scared."

I spoke these words to my SO yesterday. After a wonderful weekend and feeling so great, out of nowhere I could feel that something was changing. I don't know why yet, but I could tell that it was happening.

I am told that this is great, that it's a start. Although I was not...
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Posted by blueboots21  in blueboots21's Blog
As a victim I want to reach out to other victims. Not as someone to preach to you and tell you what you should've done or said or anything. I want to be there for anyone who wants to talk..about anything. I won't push subjects. But, I want to encourage as many people as I can to not give up. To see they're beautiful. To see that you...
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To my brother

18 June 2013
Posted by one.day.  in One Day at a Time
I'm sorry I reminded you of your sister. I'm sorry we never kept in touch. I'm sorry you never wanted to see us. I'm sorry you had so much guilt. I'm sorry Nicki had to leave us all. I'm sorry you were so alone. I'm sorry for all the hatred you stored. I'm sorry for who was your dad. I'm sorry I got away....
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how to hold on

18 June 2013
Posted by fairies  in fairies' Blog
to stay afloat
to not go under
to breath
to not go down
to stay standing somehow
trying to stay me trying

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Posted by Clove45  in Clove45's Blog
Every blow is a searing pain
The burning child of dust
Grows with every step
A bulbous monster that will soak your rage
And torment you till the end of your days
Safetly keeping those you may harm
And leaving you with no aid
This child of rage and violence feeds
Until you can no longer breed
The violence and destruction that you keep

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Concentration

17 June 2013
Posted by janeteddy  in Opening pandora's box
Concentration is "the ability to direct one's thinking in whatever direction one would intend".
This stupid concentration, where has it gone? I can't concentrate and I have to! All I'm thinking about is the pain... For weeks now, not one day when I wouldn't think about it.
I'm a bit pessimistic about my future...
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Posted by Simpletruth  in Simpletruth's Blog
If you become my height,
That'll be the final straw...
Closer to what I'm pretending not to think...
Closer to what I'm pretending doesn't exist.
Like doesn't lead to love.
It doesn't.
It doesn't, right?
Right.
Great.

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Release of denial

16 June 2013
Posted by hope88  in hope88's Blog
Five months ago I was a victim of sexual assault. I knew my attacker and I trusted my attacker.

I have not dealt with it but rather hid from it. I have shut out my family and friends and worst of all, I am still employed at the job in which it all took place.

For the first few weeks after I admitted to what was happening, I relived it... over...
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Change

16 June 2013
Posted by writer2010  in writer2010's Blog
So a lot has happened ever since graduating high school (basically these past three years) and now the whole change effect is really kicking in. I have been very fortunate and been enjoying my internship on a movie studio lot where not too many people will have the chance to see behind the scenes like I do. One of my friends, who I have known...
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"Strange"

15 June 2013
Posted by iamnotbubba  in Perpetually Healing
I wrote a poem today. Please read "strange."

Perpetually Healing poetry page

iamnotbubba

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urgh! why

14 June 2013
Posted by dreamcatcher95  in dreamcatcher95's Blog
i feel absolutely terrible things have literally gone from good to terrible in a week! i dont know what wrong just everything is.i cant leave the house without panicing i cant sleep with nightmares and body memories, im terrified to do just about anything. i had T today and i told her everything was fine. i dont know why i did that i just...
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:/

14 June 2013
Posted by britt124brat  in britt124brat's Blog
It's been a while again..still not in the greatest of moods....my allergies have been so bad this year that my eyes habe almost swollen shut twice in tue past 2 weeks....I have eye drops for em now from the Dr.....my relationship is still on the fritz.....we are trying to work on this but I don't see a point at the moment....Im affraid if...
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PTSD and Me

13 June 2013
Posted by HardCor  in HardCor's Blog
PTSD. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I remember the first time I heard this. "It appears that you have many of the symptoms of PTSD." Excuse me? I'm not stressed. What trauma? What do you mean I have a mental condition? What does this mean?

I went home after that session at the counsellors. Originally I had come in due to...
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Please remember

13 June 2013
Posted by EVH  in EVH's Blog
Hey, what are you doing here?

Just wanted to see how you are doing. Don't worry, she's safe, sleeping. She's not alone. She never is. She has a whole army protecting her.
I'm here because it's time.

What do you mean?

You're done here. She has your light. And she knows how to protect it. Now she knows. You read the...
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My first entry :)

13 June 2013
Posted by rainfall  in rainfall's Blog
Today is my birthday. I'm not a big fan of special days for "new beginnings" and stuff, I actually dislike New Years (might have something to do with me being terrified of the thought of drunk people with fireworks). But this acutally feels like one, and it feels nice. I feel like I'm leaving my teenage years behind me and...
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Posted by JadeAngel  in JadeAngel's Blog
I guess I don't write as much anymore because I feel like I can cope on my own without an outlet. But I have come to realize a set of challenges in a way I didn't think about before.

A little over 8 years ago I moved to central america to marry and live with my then-fiance. His mother lived with the father of her 3 daughters (his 3 half...
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Posted by Wither  in Wither Time
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Imagine. A young girl of 15, alone in the city, working a low-paid job, trying to earn enough money to get back home. A customer, a man of twenty, comes into the shop offering friendly smiles. He is always with his girlfriend, but he flirts with the 15 year old girl. She is flattered.
The night of her 16 th birthday, she is working...
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