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no more silence triggers Last night I was at dinner with a few friends and I was triggered by something. I then did what I usually do and dissociated, completely spaced out. Present in body but not in mind. I wasn't even really participating in the conversation anymore. I got up to go to the bathroom and just did some breathing exercises. My close friend noticed and...	rebekkah	48 Entries 128 Comments / 201 Views	triggers Last Entry: Today, 08:42 AM
Answers I will never have working it out, as best as I can I need to re-name this blog... ...and that's a good thing. On the remote chance anyone is following and wondering, I've been out of the city and away from 'net access most of the summer. There's been a lot of futzing with my meds, and a new one was found that worked, for a while, and now it doesn't anymore. This makes for a lot of ups and downs, which are...	Tian	13 Entries 10 Comments / 70 Views	I need to re-name this blog... Last Entry: Today, 07:52 AM
amandaunderthepink's Blog My thoughts and views on what happened to me Im scared I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW...ITS MY FIRST DATE AFTER MY RAPE AND THE MAN WANTS TO TAKE ME TO A HOTEL AND TEACH ME WHAT SEX IS REALLY LIKE. IM SCARED AND DONT REALLY WANT TO GO...BUT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT I AM BEING STUPID AND TO SUCK IT UP AND GO. I TELL MYSELF THAT ITS TIME FOR ME TO STOP DEALING WIITH THE SHIT AND TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE.... IS...	amandaunderthepink	17 Entries 24 Comments / 85 Views	Im scared Last Entry: Today, 08:38 AM
See Jane Run My journey of healing from sexual abuse and other fun stuff the well is dry I had therapy last night. As soon as my therapist emailed to say he had an opening and I could talk to him, some of the pain I was experiencing lifted. Or most of it lifted. We talked about that and my parents and the massage and what all of this has brought up for me lately. The realization that being touched or held was not something I got has...	trooper	264 Entries 722 Comments / 2,705 Views	the well is dry Last Entry: Today, 05:26 AM
a blog confidence is a warm gun just still trying to keep on writing...not working.	Zelda	362 Entries 554 Comments / 5,766 Views	confidence is a warm gun Last Entry: Today, 05:24 AM
The Missing Frame My life's my book, it's the story of what I write - and no one said you could change what I write! Crushed.... ....like a soda can. Here is a more, slightly in-depth thing on what exploded today and why I am so down. He said that he'd been "wrapping his head around this the past couple days and here's the conclusion". He doesn't want to get too attached going into the Navy. "You're a great gal and you deserve a great...	Shining_On124	23 Entries 21 Comments / 257 Views	Crushed.... Last Entry: Today, 02:04 AM
bellachai's Blog just me Specialness I just read this in a book by Catherine Cookson: 'All things in life worthwhile are trials". For many of us there has been so many trials and yet we survived. Lucky us. Abuse in any form is a sin against us the survivors. It is a crime of hate and resentment. Perhaps we were chosen because of our specialness out of jealousy,...	bellachai	84 Entries 338 Comments / 229 Views	Specialness Last Entry: Today, 12:51 AM
one silent feather's Blog Rambling Visually One There we are one, here we are many.	one silent feather	120 Entries 69 Comments / 3,089 Views	One Last Entry: Yesterday, 08:42 PM
my blog being positive I haven’t been feeling too terribly positive lately. I feel like I’ve even started to go where I shouldn’t, with my thinking. The past few days I’ve started to scare myself with some of my thinking. I’ve wanted to hide away in the house, and I feel like I’m trying to stuff things back down inside. And, besides my anxiety, I’ve also been...	missophelia	298 Entries 823 Comments / 1,391 Views	being positive Last Entry: Today, 09:05 AM
AnnaETC's Blog ramblings, encouragement, creativity, and lots and lots of mindless dribble :) Leaving tomorrow on vacation... A much needed vacation with my cute boyfriend. We have been waiting for this for sooo long...it's our 6 month anniversary, so we're headed to South Carolina for 4 days to see his friends and a few things along the way--the zoo, a drive in theater, the coastline, the mountains. I'm excited about it, but things have just been going so...	AnnaETC	1 Entries 0 Comments / 7 Views	Leaving tomorrow on vacation... Last Entry: Yesterday, 05:53 PM
Resurfacing... not hiding anymore a space to practice being open with others learning to open up I'm starting to open up my heart. It's been almost twenty years, and I'm starting to feel again. I started this blog to give me a place to practice being 'open' in the world. It's safe, it's anonymous, and it's in a beautiful community. I'm dreading my second appointment with my new therapist tomorrow. I know...	Jamie_Elizabeth	1 Entries 1 Comments / 5 Views	learning to open up Last Entry: Yesterday, 06:15 PM
Project31 Daily post of 6 positive words to myself Day 12 Blessed... to be alive at all.	newroots	12 Entries 4 Comments / 27 Views	Day 12 Last Entry: Yesterday, 01:52 PM
newroots' Blog surviving rollercoaster Up. Down. Scary freefall. Fun freefall. Battle uphill. Rewarding challenge uphill. "seems like i'll never win" - but what am I trying to "win"? Happiness. Peace of Mind. PEACE. My life started out wonderful.(at least I'll tell myself that) My SA began as far back as the age of four. By immediate family...	newroots	2 Entries 0 Comments / 17 Views	rollercoaster Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 10:35 PM
freespirit87's Blog ramblings new job I've been in a sort of rut for the last couple of months because I had no job, at least not a solid job. I start my new job tomorrow as a packer for bluebell ice cream. I'll be working in the freezer.It seems like an interesting enough job! I've done all sorts of things in my short life: stable manager, volunteer coordinator,...	freespirit87	3 Entries 0 Comments / 12 Views	new job Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 08:21 PM
Words from the Soul Poetry, Prose, and the Likes... Thank You Snake ...	soulconstance	10 Entries 3 Comments / 56 Views	Thank You Snake Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 03:21 PM
JadeAngel's Blog Incest Rape Survivor sad & confused. cant win ok, i'm gonna write this as if i havent posted in this blog before... i just need to put it down so i can see it and maybe help myself think more clearly. now... i'll put it as straight as i can, i hate causing confusion about my problems. bluntly, my step father had been sexually and physically abusing me for some years. it ended just...	JadeAngel	13 Entries 2 Comments / 224 Views	sad & confused. cant win Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 02:25 PM
hope through the hurt i need to find my voice. maybe it's here. emdr I go back to see my therapist the day after tomorrow. I am nervous. She keeps talking about EMDR and when we should start it. I am afraid. Even though I've researched it, I feel like I don't have a very good understanding of exactly what is going to happen when she starts the tapping or light flashing or whatever it is. It scares me. ...	purplelikeme	28 Entries 37 Comments / 105 Views	emdr Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 03:02 PM
stillbreathing's Blog Don't know how to feel anything anymore mad that i cant chat and boyfriends are annoying! Why do I always have to find the guys who want to move all fast and get a place and play house together. I hate meeting someone and they just wanna be up under me, and what is wrong with being together but seperate. I hate when the person Im talking to says things like " I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM IS AND IM NOT THOSE OTHER GUYS WHOEVER...	stillbreathing	19 Entries 24 Comments / 117 Views	mad that i cant chat and boyfriends a... Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 11:17 AM
sona's Blog exhausted Tired and weak feeling this morning. I did'nt get much sleep last night. I have to go to my daughters IEP meeting (even though I really don't want to.) I love her-but she's not in my care. I don' see why her foster mom don't go. I've advocated for my daughter in the passes (It don' matter what I sayYm The school staff...	sona	9 Entries 9 Comments / 56 Views	exhausted Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 01:02 PM
sona's Blog SAD feels like hurt Feels like hunger pains I feel scared because the more I eat the more my stomach rumble and grown like a tornado I cover my ears, count do something to distract myself from thinking about pain or weight. I remind myself gently that I am safe nothing bad is going to happen if I keep the food down Sometimes the pains feelings in my stomach-I just...	sona	3 Entries 1 Comments / 3 Views	feels like hurt Last Entry: 07 September 2010 - 03:48 AM

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