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For December "No smile is more beautiful, than the one that struggles through the tears." My letter to my rapist's bar exam board Hello, Thank you for reading this. This is a difficult for me to write because I’m having to re-live two of the worst moments of my life: losing my virginity to rape by MP. and the judicial hearing that followed. But I thank you for giving me the opportunity to continue to voice the truth. On December 4th, 2009, MP made the decision to rape me...	xRainx	80 Entries 44 Comments / 2,913 Views	My letter to my rapist's bar exam board Last activity: 13 June 2013 - 03:08 PM
anji13's Blog just random ramblings i guess glass i say i am untouchable unbroken numb most hours i am alone i sit deaf to the noise surrounding my shattered heart i am some fragile thing sitting a self lost within myself my grief i will not say i am glass glass is beautiful sharp and contained i am wild rough dull but we share a common past glass and i both hardened by heat pressed by...	anji13	46 Entries 44 Comments / 3,166 Views	glass Last Entry: 29 April 2013 - 06:51 AM
Road to Peace Journey in rebuiling my life and trusting God And so it continues... Oh man so I was up at 4 am this morning. I woke up in a cold sweat from a nightmare. It jolted me awake. I just sat there and sobbed. Finally I pulled myself together and got up and decided I might as well just get up and get ready for the day. So I showered and cleaned up. I went back into my room and got dressed. Thank God I got dressed first...	shatteredAli	33 Entries 43 Comments / 1,256 Views	And so it continues... Last activity: 18 September 2012 - 07:05 AM
nee's Blog The pain never goes away needing a friend :( i have one very good friend that i have talked to for a couple of years about just about everything in life. over the past year she met a guy and she would tell me how he was trying to control her although he lives several hundred miles away from her. she would tell me that she wasn't scared of him (she lives with her brother and doesn't...	nee	80 Entries 40 Comments / 2,978 Views	needing a friend :( Last activity: 16 November 2012 - 10:43 PM
Reenie's Blog Peace and anxiety - fighting for control This is strange, and new. I feel calm and peaceful, then filled with anxiety, then peace comes again. I'm taking this as a good sign, a sign that there is peace beyond the fear. I have accomplished more today than I've been able to do on most Sat. But I'm afraid to push it because I feel the anxiety just below the surface, waiting...	Reenie565	67 Entries 40 Comments / 3,481 Views	Peace and anxiety - fighting for control Last Entry: 19 May 2012 - 12:29 PM
Abigail's blog Anything. Why? I hate the word why, because I'll never get an answer. Why me? Why did he do it? Why does it hurt me everyday. Why can't I ignore it? I just want help :'( I just want it to get better. I'm 18 and I don't wanna be like this forever, always crying, flinching when I hear the word... I hope it will get better /> will it :'(	Dollygirl	16 Entries 39 Comments / 1,187 Views	Why? Last activity: 24 January 2013 - 11:21 PM
foreverhurt's Blog therapy for me Years later, I have been through it all. Hi my pandy friends, I am not as often as I should be. I feel the need to write today because I just wanted to put my feelings in words, words I know you all can relate to. I will tell you briefly my story for those of you who have not kept up with anything that I have written. I was sa by my older brother for a few years. I was in the 5th grade...	foreverhurt	41 Entries 38 Comments / 1,463 Views	Years later, I have been through it all. Last Entry: 07 February 2010 - 09:59 PM
Word Salad Incoherent ramblings of a (former) superhero. What don't you like about yourself? My T asked me this last week and I wasn't able to answer her. She wanted me to use my voice so she wouldn't let me write it down. I just sat there. I don't know why it's so difficult to speak out loud. Anyway, here's what I came up with today... Why don’t you like yourself? What don’t you like about yourself? [u]Let’s...	GuitarHero	25 Entries 38 Comments / 3,151 Views	What don't you like about yourself? Last activity: 28 October 2012 - 04:14 PM
sherodon's Blog Feeling stereotypical I'm zoning out all the time now. It's like I cant handle life. I don't even want to come back down to earth I'd rather stay with my mind in other places. It's exhausting though and it wears me out mentally. When ever I do try to be more present then I just get mad. Like I'm super mad at life right now and I cant shake the...	sherodon	46 Entries 38 Comments / 2,612 Views	Feeling stereotypical Last activity: 03 December 2012 - 11:07 PM
Arietta_Sashrady's Blog Trying to make sense out of senselessness. Back To The Light Seems I always sit and write here when I'm complaining or feeling low. Well, there's something today that I want to tell you. It gets so much better. I won't say that it ever goes away; I think this specter will always be with me in some form or another, but much like my shadow I've learned to accept this pain as a companion in...	Arietta_Sashrady	44 Entries 37 Comments / 3,086 Views	Back To The Light Last Entry: 26 November 2012 - 07:27 AM
I Will Follow You Into The Dark A Healing Journey Still Here... Just! I haven't posted in ages, but I was away from the board for a while after my dad suddenly died at the end of 2010. Naturally, I've been finding it very hard to deal with that on top of everything else - the last six months have been so difficult. Add to that a useless psychiatrist who - despite his promises - neglected to refer me to the...	fader	14 Entries 37 Comments / 1,586 Views	Still Here... Just! Last Entry: 15 July 2011 - 11:29 AM
sakura7792's Blog the constant war against the world & myself... ...thank you well...where do I even begin? What I have overcome in this year has been overwhelming. It was if my yearning to heal rippled through the universe and I attracted all these amazing, wise people to help carry me over the fire. One there to hold me when I was afraid, to love me and protect me...Another there to give me advice, tools and guidance; A...	sakura7792	26 Entries 37 Comments / 826 Views	...thank you Last Entry: 09 August 2011 - 04:42 AM
One Day at a Time To my brother I'm sorry I reminded you of your sister. I'm sorry we never kept in touch. I'm sorry you never wanted to see us. I'm sorry you had so much guilt. I'm sorry Nicki had to leave us all. I'm sorry you were so alone. I'm sorry for all the hatred you stored. I'm sorry for who was your dad. I'm sorry I got away....	one.day.	41 Entries 37 Comments / 2,893 Views	To my brother Last activity: 18 June 2013 - 11:33 AM
akanegumo's Blog I don't deserve happiness. Things aren't going well for me recently... I feel like my depression is comming back and scares me... May be past few months I was doing good. I could smile more and I could feel happiness more. Yet, from few days ago, I cry more and more and more. Yesterday was bad, today is wrose. I'm having bad dreams, and bad memories are comming...	akanegumo	16 Entries 35 Comments / 1,075 Views	I don't deserve happiness. Last Entry: 26 March 2012 - 07:54 PM
espoir_de_lavenir's Blog Been Away for a While Hey there. =) I've been away for a while, which, I'm sure you probably realize, if you've read the title. But, things started popping up. I started to get sick, and started having some issues with my parents and college (which, by the way, I'm starting in the fall. I'M FINALLY MOVING OUT!!). Anywho, things have just...	espoir_de_lavenir	104 Entries 35 Comments / 1,886 Views	Been Away for a While Last Entry: 13 July 2011 - 12:04 PM
Evie03's Blog My day to day struggles she is out and i dont wanna see her so my mother is out of hospital. came out last week. hasnt talked to me for a few days. which has been nice. is that bad to think? i just feel so more me when im not worrying all the time about her. shes never really been a mother to me. i dont even call her that, i call her by her first name. me and my bf are doing better now. more on an even...	Evie03	20 Entries 35 Comments / 571 Views	she is out and i dont wanna see her Last Entry: 19 May 2013 - 09:41 PM
DTC40's Blog Life as a survivor Hate Hate Hate menopause No sleep and pain in areas of my body that causes flashbacks and memories. It seems when the good things finally get into my life and I am starting over in a new place and happy, the full force of menopause hits me. I have been going through this mildly for about a year and in the past three weeks it is like my body has decided to hate me. No...	DTC40	35 Entries 34 Comments / 1,295 Views	Hate Hate Hate menopause Last activity: 05 May 2013 - 02:21 AM
With Brutal Honesty... Very slowly coming to terms with multiple assualts and a domestic violence relationship. How I met my husband... from yesterday. Swearing I think. I first met Armando at a night club one weekend about six years ago. A few days later we went on our first date which was quite mundane I think. Really quiet, he was really shy, not really any sparks at all now that I think about it. Shortly there after, (a few days maybe) we began a routine of me coming over, getting some take out and watching...	Sao19	54 Entries 33 Comments / 1,201 Views	How I met my husband... from yesterday. Swearin... Last Entry: 03 November 2010 - 03:33 AM
savemefrommyself's Blog Help the new girl? Just want to be worthy of love and beautiful i feel like everywhere i go i am told i'm not good enough: my church-because i slept with my brother (even if it wasnt my choice). my siblings-because i told my parents for the attention (yes, every 3rd grader calls rape to get attention.. not.) my parents-because i told the secret. (it was of course my fault for not screaming or fighting just...	savemefrommyself	20 Entries 33 Comments / 346 Views	Just want to be worthy of love and beautiful Last Entry: 25 January 2011 - 07:08 AM
~Lucchia's Corner~ I would die by pieces to save myself from real death. I miss him so much... When he said he wanted to be my friend and nothing more...I just died inside. But he still wanted to go to the movies, to walk, to do the things we had been doing...and I said no. I want some time to heal, and I want some time to put myself together. If you want me to be your friend, I NEED to stop seeing you as a man and start seeing you as a...	Lucchia	20 Entries 33 Comments / 1,183 Views	I miss him so much... Last Entry: 05 August 2011 - 09:35 PM

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My letter to my rapist's bar exam board

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And so it continues...

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Peace and anxiety - fighting for control

Why?

Years later, I have been through it all.

What don't you like about yourself?

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Back To The Light

Still Here... Just!

...thank you

To my brother

I don't deserve happiness.

Been Away for a While

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How I met my husband... from yesterday. Swearing I think.

Just want to be worthy of love and beautiful

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