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It's Aubade The birds start singing and so do I Amoeba I feel like a germ. Invading the school. I walk around, thousands surround me, yet among them all. I am befouled. I am a contaigen. I am unpure. Should I share what is in me, I will infect others. But of course, it isn't me. It is them left in me. Who knows. So many people. Using me. Abusing me. Leaving their mark on me. In me. And because of...	Dawn Aubade	243 Entries 79 Comments / 10,286 Views	Amoeba Last Entry: 17 September 2009 - 11:00 PM
BehindSilentEyes I could really use a wish right now... Love(?) [center] J: What are you doing? Me: Nothing, I'm fine. You? J: Going to crash here. J says he loves you. Me: What? Is he drunk? J: Probably. We all are. He said it, though. Most of my brothers friends have known me for years. One of them saying...	BehindSilentEyes	14 Entries 76 Comments / 1,177 Views	Love(?) Last activity: 22 July 2012 - 11:35 AM
blondie2002's Blog I think J** confessed to "likeing" me I was talking to J** (my apartment manager) yesterday about possibly moving to different apartment within the complex because of my ptsd, (the apartments are the only subsidized ones in my area)and he unfortuneately said that non are available. (Which I kinda figured that, but I had to ask.) Then somehow we got on the subject of me likeing...	blondie2002	47 Entries 75 Comments / 3,706 Views	I think J**** confessed to "likeing" me Last activity: 17 February 2013 - 11:52 PM
Ready for the black and white? I feel like I conquered Mt Everest To a normal person I would definetly sound crazy BUT for me going to the doctor for a check up and pap smear is almost Everst worthy. It is something I have not done in 20 years. (over 20 years for regular check up and about 12 years for pap smear) I have seen doctors in that time but always for a specific purpose or specialty where I...	might4right	51 Entries 75 Comments / 2,842 Views	I feel like I conquered Mt Everest Last Entry: 20 April 2012 - 06:15 PM
slb720's Blog Thoughts I'm feeling a little crazy lately. It feels like I have no control. I think I go into periods of denial about everything. The rapes, addiction, and just the way that I am. My counselor and I got to the part of the intake where we talked about the trauma in my life. I didn't tell her everything, yet. We didn't go into details, but...	slb720	69 Entries 71 Comments / 2,128 Views	Thoughts Last Entry: 24 June 2012 - 08:08 AM
Once Upon A Time Be safe T Lotsa swearing and other stuff going on here, be safe if you choose to read. I've been online for the past two hours, I have some sort of drive. i always get this drive every few mths, I just wish I could find a picture of him. I have searched, I have rechanged the search, I found registries, I found warrants, I may have finally...	Donna	93 Entries 68 Comments / 2,844 Views	Be safe T Last Entry: 07 June 2005 - 06:04 PM
hope through the hurt i need to find my voice. maybe it's here. Damaged I am so SICK of men telling me that I am "damaged." Of men telling me that they can't handle what happened to me and so they have to walk away. Of men expecting me to feel sorry for THEM after they have heard the details of my assault because it's so difficult to hear and imagine. Difficult to HEAR? It's difficult...	purplelikeme	47 Entries 68 Comments / 958 Views	Damaged Last Entry: 28 April 2012 - 06:45 AM
In my head A Window to my World uggggghhhhhhh 2012 I hate this year. So many things have gone on.too many things. The most recent being that I've abandoned my new found sexuality and returned to an ex. one of the good ones, but yup he's a male. after almost two years of not having a male partner I'm back again and genuinely happy. we took a vacation together. my first ever. we moved...	lostinsideofme	163 Entries 64 Comments / 6,904 Views	uggggghhhhhhh 2012 Last Entry: 11 June 2012 - 09:49 AM
survadvo's Blog just having my say dont know ive deleted this line so many times but mark, i used to love you so much, i have songs that have lyrics to perfectly describe how i feel, christina perri...., i cheated on you because kevin raped me, because of that i need more reassurance, im more insecure than i were before, im irrational at times, i need more love. i miss you like mad, but...	survadvo	40 Entries 62 Comments / 2,389 Views	dont know Last activity: 20 November 2012 - 11:47 PM
Nevetuli's Blog Puppy Video http://www.youtube.c...A?feature=watch Just click on My Movie!	Nevetuli	24 Entries 62 Comments / 849 Views	Puppy Video Last activity: 21 April 2013 - 09:34 PM
Punky's Blog NEW WoW WoW . yesterday i meet with my new therapist i was so scared to go i didn't want to have to explain stuff al over agian . but as soon as i walked in her office she was waiting for me she welcome me and took me into her office it was nice and calm differant then my other theapist office . we talked alittle she asked me about my alters and there...	Punky	34 Entries 60 Comments / 1,478 Views	WoW Last Entry: 15 April 2012 - 10:31 PM
writer2010's Blog Lately Been 'rewarding' myself as T mentions especially since I burned out real bad this past Nov-Jan by always work work working and not really taking breaks. And with all of the past family stuff, just really hit my hard. But just wanted to say that I feel like I am getting better each day by praying and self-talking out of the anxiety before...	writer2010	113 Entries 59 Comments / 4,496 Views	Lately Last activity: Yesterday, 05:37 PM
An Unquiet Mind.. Kate's Place hold onto nothing as fast as you can I don't want my heart broken again, I don't want to be alone again, ..	Kviii	75 Entries 57 Comments / 2,871 Views	hold onto nothing as fast as you can Last activity: 01 May 2007 - 02:28 PM
here in my head My thoughts and views on what happened to me scared of food I have been doing this weird thing for awhile. I haven't been eating, or I have been eating weird things....celery.....vegetables, fruits, and loads of water. I have worried about my weight ever since I gave birth, but I hate being this big, and changing my eating habits...idk if it is working, but I havent been feeling good. Like I drink...	amandaunderthepink	48 Entries 53 Comments / 3,150 Views	scared of food Last activity: 02 April 2013 - 03:43 PM
My Rant. .... venting I feel soooo absolutely horrible. I feel like I am such a burden to patti and rick. Theyve told me they love me...but about a week ago there was a HUGE fight and I felt like complete shit..I didn't understand it at all and tonight I was trying so hard to understand everything but he didn't feel like talking...I should've respected that...	bellaroo	45 Entries 52 Comments / 3,044 Views	venting Last activity: Yesterday, 03:55 PM
ssrat's Blog My Place? Speaking..Bank.. etc. Well 2 weeks ago she gave me an "exercise" for me to just say "leave me alone" out loud, as easy as that seems I have not been able to say anything out loud since I have moved in here. I spent a few times thinking about it and trying tto let even NO leave my lips but my mind just locks up my throat and nothing comes out. At...	ssrat	52 Entries 51 Comments / 1,719 Views	Speaking..Bank.. etc. Last Entry: 15 July 2008 - 11:23 PM
Seanna's Life Experiences of a destructing Relationship this hell called Survivorhood. pppppfffffttt Why won't he leave me alone? I don't want to live in my memories anymore. I have a right to live my life like a normal person without threat or fear. He won't let that happen. Why must he send me periodic warnings to keep quiet. That's what the vandalism was I believe. A warning to quit talking. Or a warning to never tell....	Seanna	56 Entries 49 Comments / 6,189 Views	this hell called Survivorhood. pppppfffffttt Last Entry: 22 February 2013 - 08:11 PM
Aurora325's Blog Growing I want him to pay /> I was raped again. I can't believe it. The man I went to when I was hurting, a man I told everything too. He raped me. How could he be so cruel. I am proud that I realized it was rape only a year after it happened, since the other attacks took me 4 years to come to terms with. But again?! WHY!!!! I...	Aurora325	27 Entries 47 Comments / 1,299 Views	I want him to pay Last activity: 05 May 2013 - 11:29 AM
flutterby514's Blog so havent been on in a while. things havent gotten better. this year was supposed to be amazing! the year i graduated high school! the year i start college! the year everything was just supposed to be great! that was an epic FAIL!!! this year couldnt have sucked anymore :/ my brother in law killed himself. my sister found out that day that she was pregnant with there second...	flutterby514	42 Entries 45 Comments / 574 Views	so havent been on in a while. things havent got... Last Entry: 07 December 2010 - 10:38 PM
anji13's Blog just random ramblings i guess glass i say i am untouchable unbroken numb most hours i am alone i sit deaf to the noise surrounding my shattered heart i am some fragile thing sitting a self lost within myself my grief i will not say i am glass glass is beautiful sharp and contained i am wild rough dull but we share a common past glass and i both hardened by heat pressed by...	anji13	46 Entries 44 Comments / 2,956 Views	glass Last Entry: 29 April 2013 - 06:51 AM

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hold onto nothing as fast as you can

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Amoeba

Love(?)

I think J**** confessed to "likeing" me

I feel like I conquered Mt Everest

Thoughts

Be safe **T**

Damaged

uggggghhhhhhh 2012

dont know

Puppy Video

WoW

Lately

hold onto nothing as fast as you can

scared of food

venting

Speaking..Bank.. etc.

this hell called Survivorhood. pppppfffffttt

I want him to pay

so havent been on in a while. things havent gotten better.

glass

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