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Irishleo's Blog Lost in a sea of despair Dreaming of freedom I feel tormented, as if I will never be free of him. How do I release the little girl trapped inside of me from what he did? Am I crazy to fantasize about the adult me being able to burst into my childhood bedroom and attack him before he can hurt the child I was? Such pointless thoughts, and yet I have them often. I never imagine anyone else...	Irishleo	62 Entries 129 Comments / 5,034 Views	Dreaming of freedom Last activity: 05 May 2013 - 07:03 AM
picklewheeze's Blog the sea There is an entire continent, between me and my sea. The waves lap angrily at the land, but they will not reach me. But on my island, I am alone. Circled infinitely by the sea, that grows higher and higher. My only outlet, to bleed. But with every slice, I destroy myself. With every blade, I slip further. The blood flows like tears. But I...	picklewheeze	2 Entries 0 Comments / 47 Views	the sea Last Entry: 02 May 2013 - 03:29 PM
Juliet's Hope My story so far... The Real Amazing Johnny [font="Arial"] I don’t even know what Johnny was before, but he was not Amazing Johnny. And I know who Amazing Johnny is. He is extremely selfish. Amazing Johnny’s interests will always come first. He does not go out of his way for anyone if there is nothing in it for him. He truly cares nothing for other people. Amazing Johnny is...	Julie.T	18 Entries 3 Comments / 231 Views	The Real Amazing Johnny Last activity: 30 April 2013 - 09:47 PM
Collapse No More Battery about to die. Anxiety. ANXIETY! So much of it! And with two papers due by Friday, I don't see any change. More later.	Kalii	1 Entries 2 Comments / 27 Views	Battery about to die. Last activity: 30 April 2013 - 09:35 AM
anji13's Blog just random ramblings i guess glass i say i am untouchable unbroken numb most hours i am alone i sit deaf to the noise surrounding my shattered heart i am some fragile thing sitting a self lost within myself my grief i will not say i am glass glass is beautiful sharp and contained i am wild rough dull but we share a common past glass and i both hardened by heat pressed by...	anji13	46 Entries 44 Comments / 2,971 Views	glass Last Entry: 29 April 2013 - 06:51 AM
Carollaine's Blog When do you get to stop being worried when will I get to stop being worried there is a long history of abuse in my family. My mother, my sister's, and myself. None of these effect me like the suffering of my daughter. She says her childhood stopped at 12 when she had flashbacks. I wanted so badly to stop the abuse with my generation. my daughter and I have talked for hours about what she has gone through. She...	Carollaine	1 Entries 0 Comments / 30 Views	when will I get to stop being worried Last Entry: 26 April 2013 - 09:34 PM
AlanaM's Blog Bad things come at night It's amazing how as soon as my daughter goes down, I begin to think about horrible things. I become fixated on SA and spend hours writing poetry or stories having to do with it. I spend all day staying extra busy, but when night comes I immediately begin to think and mull over it for hours. Night is a terrible time for me anyway. As...	AlanaM	1 Entries 2 Comments / 31 Views	Bad things come at night Last activity: 27 April 2013 - 07:29 PM
dancinginpain2's Blog Finding wings to fly A few Inspiring quotes *“How far have you walked for men who’ve never held your feet in their laps?”-Warsan Shire* (WOW story of my life!!!!!!) Every passing second is another chance to turn it all around We are eternal, fate is an illusion Let go of fear Grant me the serenity to know what i...	dancinginpain2	2 Entries 1 Comments / 37 Views	A few Inspiring quotes Last activity: 27 April 2013 - 01:28 AM
ChasingTailLights' Blog Sometimes the better you are the worse you feel Nightmares I used to live somewhere where the abuse was constant. Every time my mom was gone...he'd show up. Each time was like the first and it cut deeper than the time before, building up a scar while breaking me down. I knew it was wrong, I knew I should have told but I couldn't. Every time my mind wondered I'd just shut down and I'd find...	ChasingTailLights	1 Entries 0 Comments / 38 Views	Nightmares Last Entry: 26 April 2013 - 10:46 AM
Falula's Random Stuff Making Amends To The Person Who Molested Me Background… I have a friend I'll call Bob, who is very confrontational and I found myself getting angry with him quite often in our conversations. I told him about my feelings of anger and he said it was because he didn't pat me on the back and say "poor Janice" like everyone else does. This made me still more angry. ...	Falula	21 Entries 10 Comments / 1,234 Views	Making Amends To The Person Who Molested Me Last Entry: 25 April 2013 - 09:11 PM
Kyrie's Blog Hidden Truths I found this just recently in the newsletter from March 2009 on Pandys. The core message holds a truth that all survivors need to hear. "Take a carrot for an example. When you grate it, it's still a carrot. You can cook it, grate it, chop it, boil it, mash it. You can do what you want to it, but it never STOPS being a carrot and...	Kyrie	9 Entries 9 Comments / 360 Views	Hidden Truths Last activity: 26 April 2013 - 08:01 AM
StillDay's Blog Stream Of Consciousness You are my hero I am 24, which feels very old. One of the reasons, though, is that I remember knowing 2X-year-olds and thinking they knew/understood/experienced so much. I am just coming to terms with many of the "bad things" that happened in my life. I have also, for many years, been aware of the fact that I was suicidal for a very long time. If not...	StillDay	1 Entries 2 Comments / 34 Views	You are my hero Last activity: 23 April 2013 - 12:34 PM
DTC40's Blog Life as a survivor Hate Hate Hate menopause No sleep and pain in areas of my body that causes flashbacks and memories. It seems when the good things finally get into my life and I am starting over in a new place and happy, the full force of menopause hits me. I have been going through this mildly for about a year and in the past three weeks it is like my body has decided to hate me. No...	DTC40	35 Entries 34 Comments / 1,236 Views	Hate Hate Hate menopause Last activity: 05 May 2013 - 02:21 AM
the two thousand year stare struggling; remembered some things; flashbacks I have been trying to be well, but something opened the "shoeboxes" in the closet of my mind. /> I keep experiencing the smell and taste of blood. I don't know where it is coming from. Maybe it is all in my head. I am hurting in the places I was hurt long ago. The slightest thing, the littlest reminder brings...	indigo_rainbow	18 Entries 10 Comments / 2,416 Views	struggling; remembered some things; flashbacks Last Entry: 20 April 2013 - 12:20 PM
mom this is a letter to my mom she will never read friends come and go sometimes it is hard to let go sometimes i remember your face and you smile i remember the way we used to run and play the days we were so innocent i remember the way you and i used to talk the day i asked you to marry me.... we were what 8? i remember the way you and him used to wrestle on my front lawn to show off.. i remember the way you...	amy12	2 Entries 2 Comments / 84 Views	friends come and go Last activity: 20 April 2013 - 12:09 PM
iamjustsomeone's Blog Just Someone Why did you stay? In the first month of us dating you told me I was chubby. You soon moved onto comparing me to my friends, telling me I came up short. Eventually I'd share was I thought were faults and you added to them, giving me new food for thought I had never dreamed of. I had lumpy knees, a double chin and disappointing bra size. On top of my body's...	iamjustsomeone	2 Entries 1 Comments / 77 Views	Why did you stay? Last activity: 20 April 2013 - 12:24 AM
free2speak's Blog processing anger through kneading bread and other great ways to "get all the yucky feelings out of your system" Star-lit healing, day-lit hope I have just emerged, recently, from a black-cast color: the dark color of dissociation and the broken memories that never seem to reflect a whole. I had been in therapy when it happened. Triggered by other members and their own recollections, I felt as sick and detached as I had when I was 7, getting attacked, it seemed, in real-time. I felt...	free2speak	4 Entries 2 Comments / 234 Views	Star-lit healing, day-lit hope Last Entry: 18 April 2013 - 04:45 PM
Juditha's Blog Being a survivor only yes is yes No is no. Maybe is not yes. If you force or manipulate someone, it isn't yes. It isn't consent. If he or she is underaged, it is no. If you have a weapon it is no. If you are her or his partner it isn't automatically yes. It can be no. Everyone has the right to say no at any point. We can change our mind. We do not owe you anything....	Juditha	7 Entries 11 Comments / 213 Views	only yes is yes Last activity: 20 April 2013 - 08:14 AM
Words from the Soul Poetry, Prose, and the Likes... Cus I Drank Too Much I still have a split in my lip the proof of my addiction as it burrows itself deeper into my face and I cry begging it'll leave me like a ghost I never knew beg it to let my spirit go leave me so I can heal but all I want to do is let it eat me away till death under it's pressure (or love, as they say) ((none of them ever loved me I was...	soulconstance	17 Entries 4 Comments / 905 Views	Cus I Drank Too Much Last activity: 19 April 2013 - 09:27 PM
Jennifer2782's Blog My completely random thoughts and feelings R**E is NOT a lighthearted joke! (possible trigger) (I want to warn you that this entry may possibly trigger, please take care reading) I am not always the most 'politically correct' person. I like to joke and carry on, and I am loud... Even though I may not always be 'proper' and I do make mis-steps, I always try to be considerate and mindful of others. I try to remind myself that...	Jennifer2782	16 Entries 25 Comments / 1,196 Views	R**E is NOT a lighthearted joke! (possible ... Last activity: 18 April 2013 - 09:34 PM

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Dreaming of freedom

the sea

The Real Amazing Johnny

Battery about to die.

glass

when will I get to stop being worried

Bad things come at night

A few Inspiring quotes

Nightmares

Making Amends To The Person Who Molested Me

Hidden Truths

You are my hero

Hate Hate Hate menopause

struggling; remembered some things; flashbacks

friends come and go

Why did you stay?

Star-lit healing, day-lit hope

only yes is yes

Cus I Drank Too Much

R**E is NOT a lighthearted joke! (possible trigger)

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