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bluebird88's Blog reflecting for six months after i had been sexually assaulted- i did not tell my family what happened. i didn't want to. part of me was screaming to let it out- but part of me also wanted to deny that it had even happened at all. my body itself could not deny that i had been assaulted. i started to experience racing thoughts, extreme anxiety, a constant...	bluebird88	18 Entries 15 Comments / 1,002 Views	reflecting Last Entry: 13 February 2013 - 08:42 PM
amyjo77's Blog Creative Writing and PTSD Daddy's Game a poem published in Frigg Magazine by me DADDY'S GAME I imagine you must've shut yourself off somehow--the way you'd eventually teach me to do-- before you entered my room like a king's shadow I hear the scrape of your jeans your hands hot and big like swings; I'm young so I love you. I do as you say. You blow smoke in my...	amyjo77	1 Entries 1 Comments / 94 Views	Daddy's Game Last activity: 13 February 2013 - 11:48 PM
stillbreathing's Blog Don't know how to feel anything anymore One day of peace please I prefer nights my mind is empty and I sleep peacefully. I keep praying the days, weeks, months, yrs that go by will eventually omit the memories from my mind. But they follow me through relationships ruining my most simplest ambitions. Building walls around me instead of bridges between me and those who love me. I just want to be able to feel...	stillbreathing	5 Entries 11 Comments / 432 Views	One day of peace please Last Entry: 15 February 2013 - 11:49 AM
cordeliaVorkosigan's Blog Rape & Recovery So Utterly Alone I'm so tired of being alone. I still talk to David. I love him. He is unavailable at this time. I will not elaborate. I cannot move on. I have tried. I've dated but nothing has progressed past a couple dinners out. Every time I hear from him, it is as if the sun just sprang forth. I dream of him. I crave him. We haven't seen each other...	cordeliaVorkosigan	205 Entries 102 Comments / 6,370 Views	So Utterly Alone Last Entry: 16 February 2013 - 08:56 PM
jar206's Blog Random musings from my mind at sporatic intervals. If life’s problems are lessons If life’s problems are lessons, there are things I would rather not know. People say that I should live without looking back, but I could only live without regret it if I was never taught those lessons. And what if the lessons they teach are the wrong ones? Who decided that our circumstances are the teachers we need? What happens in your life...	jar206	1 Entries 0 Comments / 101 Views	If life’s problems are lessons Last Entry: 21 February 2013 - 12:38 AM
beansy's Blog thoughts that just keep pouring Grandpa's gone I've been scared of this happening for 10 years or longer. My mother is so unstable as it is, losing her father can only make her more so. He's been supporting her financially for the last thirty years. It has been a looming disaster, and I have been waiting, fearing this time for soo long. And it's happening now. And I'm so sad to...	beansy	16 Entries 9 Comments / 1,164 Views	Grandpa's gone Last activity: 21 February 2013 - 02:34 PM
Ava77's Blog personal thoughts and feelings In a single moment! I'm a mess. I'm up, I'm down. Happy and Sad, Scared and Angry. Crying, Manic Tense then relaxed. Words and feelings whirling and swirling around in my head. Everything scrambled and not making sense. I want to be around people, but only so I don't feel alone. I don't want to talk, I only want to listen, I want to feel...	Ava77	1 Entries 0 Comments / 83 Views	In a single moment! Last Entry: 22 February 2013 - 04:57 AM
Seanna's Life Experiences of a destructing Relationship this hell called Survivorhood. pppppfffffttt Why won't he leave me alone? I don't want to live in my memories anymore. I have a right to live my life like a normal person without threat or fear. He won't let that happen. Why must he send me periodic warnings to keep quiet. That's what the vandalism was I believe. A warning to quit talking. Or a warning to never tell....	Seanna	56 Entries 49 Comments / 6,327 Views	this hell called Survivorhood. pppppfffffttt Last Entry: 22 February 2013 - 08:11 PM
From Mensa to Mental Musings from a 40 year old (sort of) virgin Family and work life I used to be a full time chemistry teacher. I taught other things too – Bio, chem, physics, geometry, environmental science. I taught bilingual Spanish sections of chemistry and geometry. I would tutor kids after school in whatever subject they needed. I also did ACT/SAT prep classes after school. I started a robotics team at my last school....	greengoddess72	7 Entries 3 Comments / 402 Views	Family and work life Last Entry: 23 February 2013 - 05:27 PM
Behind.My.Eyes' Blog I'm not always sure why, but I. Kept. Going. Entry 1 Today was a good day among the river of stress I am feeling. I played dodge ball and it was quite amazing. We had various people come in and out of our lives today. Neighbors, friends, family, soccer team members. All playing their part in our day as we took the time to be children. We took a minute and enjoyed our lives and our laughs and each...	Behind.My.Eyes	4 Entries 3 Comments / 388 Views	Entry 1 Last Entry: 25 February 2013 - 01:03 AM
Marlee's Blog Feeling like a failure Before becoming pregnant with my second child & right around the time when I had gotten engaged to my husband I decided to put my career on hold to have more time to spend focusing on important things I'd had to neglect for a really long time. When I met my husband he had a stable job & investments and could comfortably provide for me...	Marlee	1 Entries 0 Comments / 488 Views	Feeling like a failure Last Entry: 25 February 2013 - 08:43 AM
soconfused64's Blog husband issues i guess its getting better? I guess I am getting better. If better means I am still scared. If better means I still have nightmares. If better means I still have triggers and flashbacks and tears that I feel I should not shed. I guess life is getting better if that means we avoid talking about what happened to me in fear of me hiding in a dark lonely corner sulking my...	soconfused64	10 Entries 3 Comments / 421 Views	i guess its getting better? Last Entry: 26 February 2013 - 08:02 PM
labhra's Blog im tierd of acting like everything ok going out alone today for the first time since it happend i went out to collect my children from school but i went alone..... my hands were swetty my brething rappid and i was afraid i even cryed twice and hoped no1 saw me,,, i didnt know were to look tings were racing in my head i kept my eyes glued to the pavement... its horrific how a incident can destroy...	labhra	3 Entries 2 Comments / 169 Views	going out alone Last Entry: 28 February 2013 - 04:18 PM
justlisten's Blog How did this happen again? (Trigger warning) How did this happen to me again? I'm sitting here, still shaking. I barely slept last night. When I awoke, there wasn't even that blissful moment between waking and sleeping where I didn't remember. I remembered the moment I was violently jerked awake. And while the details were still vague and blurry in that early morning, I...	justlisten	4 Entries 2 Comments / 372 Views	How did this happen again? (Trigger warning) Last Entry: 01 March 2013 - 12:09 PM
Simpletruth's Blog I just need to get it out. You I miss your lips. I miss your touch. I miss everything that is male and firm and strong about you. I miss being in your arms. Protected. I'm tired. I get that I need to learn to live on my own. But I miss your strength. I miss you.	Simpletruth	14 Entries 11 Comments / 1,059 Views	You Last Entry: 01 March 2013 - 08:57 PM
Sjel's Blog I want to run in fields, paint the kitchen and love someone... I have been recently somewhat obsessed with Imogen Heap's "First Train Home" particularly the line "I want to run in fields paint the kitchen and love someone, but I can't do any of that here can I?" And altough I feel she is relating that to a casual or unstable relationship, I feel that is how I feel towards my...	sjel	1 Entries 0 Comments / 62 Views	I want to run in fields, paint the kitchen and ... Last Entry: 02 March 2013 - 02:01 AM
kellandstmartin's Blog ERROR - NO ENTRY DATA	kellandstmartin	0 Entries 0 Comments / 29 Views	Last Entry: --
paintinblue2013's Blog My Story Money, Money, Money I often wonder if my uncle trying to pay me when I was eight has given me a wired complex about it. I hate money, it makes me uncomfortable to be around it, or even more so for others trying to give it to me... I understand the need for it within social means, I understand some things about it, but I don't understand the materialistic pull the...	paintinblue2013	47 Entries 23 Comments / 2,561 Views	Money, Money, Money Last Entry: 02 March 2013 - 08:18 PM
kc504's Blog Frustrated! I don't know where to start. After talking with my mother last week about the sexual abuse I suffered as I child my emotions turned to anger. I have spent the last 15 years trying to forget the years of bullying and harassment I endured only to find out that my parents have been hiding this information from me. Had I not accidentally...	kc504	1 Entries 0 Comments / 51 Views	Frustrated! Last Entry: 03 March 2013 - 10:18 PM
paintinblue2013's Blog My Life and My thoughts death and suicide I often think about suicide, As if somehow itd mean Something, as if somehow Id bring a stop to the pain The trials the challenges, Of life what it brings I think about being gone and people Reading what I tried to explain, The rapes the pain that wont go away The tears that would stop, Sheets and pillow cases that would Dry, I wonder if then...	paintinblue2013	2 Entries 0 Comments / 122 Views	death and suicide Last Entry: 07 March 2013 - 12:37 AM

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