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I'd heard about the film Diary of A Mad Black Woman and bought the DVD sight unseen. My mom had seen the creator on Oprah, which inspired me to get it when pay-day rolled around. I love movies with revenge themes in them because I know I would never go out and kill anyone or torture them; watching these satiates my need to act them out....
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Conflicted

22 June 2005
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I want sex and I hate it at the same time. I don't want to fall in love. I think back to love and remember it as some sort of high I got from it, like I loved being in love and wanted someone to put in my fantasies to work out my feelings. I can't seem to do that anymore, since it only triggers me. I feel trapped in this trauma, unable to...
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I Didn't Dwell.

17 June 2005
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I was talking on the phone with a friend of mine last week. He mentioned this person he hated, how this person, I don't remember what his name was, but this guy had been in his place. I think he robbed it or just lifted some things. Anyway, my friend was saying how he felt like he'd been invaded then asked, "Have you ever felt...
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There's always a part of my brain that asked if it happened the way I think it happened? One guy intervened and told me to seek therapy for "What you believe happened", and this was moments after telling me he was giving the guy who raped me his supported because he needed it. Have you ever heard something so astounding as a friend...
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About a couple of years ago, there was a film shot here in Winnipeg about a woman named Julie Posey and how she discovered some pedophiles going after children through the internet. Well, the movie is coming on again this month, but I won't see it because it's on a satellite station. I saw...
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Love Is Dangerous

14 May 2005
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I was on the bus yesterday, on my way to work. Whenever I see straight couples on display, I keep thinking of how normal it seems, how acceptable it is to just show gestures of affection and not think of anyone getting their panties in a twist. I have my thing with being gay because I figure if I were straight, I could hold hands, hug in public,...
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Amazed

02 May 2005
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I'm always amazed whenever I read someone else's blog or post in the forum. It's like I'm reading my thoughts too, about how I feel, about my future and past. Coming here, I can be reassured that I'm not crazy, that others have not only gone through the same thing, but that they feel the same about themselves too. I often have...
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What if you discovered you could use a time machine and could go back in time just once, for just an hour? [i]That's easy: I'd go back to that incident and beat him up. Another option would be to not leave my room for a bit, or leave earlier to make the breakfast I was going to make. I don't...
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The Twilight Zone

30 April 2005
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[i][color=red]There's this episode of The Twilight Zone I saw so many years ago. This guy ends up in court and is sentenced to die, then when he eventually gets to the electric chair, he's back in court, so his moment is repeated endlessly. Almost like Bill Murray's Groundhog's Day. I feel like that sometimes when I...
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My Dad

20 April 2005
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I was out with some friends Monday night and I came in after 2am. I'd gotten a ride from a good friend of mine, so I arrived home safely. In the morning, as I was getting ready for work, my dad decides to interrogate me for coming in late. I'm 3 years away from turning 40 and I'm being treated like a teenager. He's putting his grip...
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Peace

18 April 2005
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When I plug myself into the tv or the computer, I feel at peace. I hate being interrupted by anyone. My dad comes into the computer room and wants to talk about whatever is on the news, but I just want to detach myself from the world. Right now, he's out of the house, so the house is quiet. I've even said in the past that I don't want...
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Megan's Law ~ Facts About Sex OffendersI've replaced the factual answers and added my own responses to make it personalMost men who commit sexual offenses do not know their victim.I knew the babysitters and my parents trusted them, and my parents trusted only other black...
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The Revelation

11 April 2005
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I was having trouble with an online member of this actors group I belong to. I almost ended up getting the whole group involved, but he sent me a letter back to me saying that this could've been just between the two of us and we could resolve this whole thing better. That's when I got this revelation: [b]My so-called friends who butted in...
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The Media Bastards!

08 April 2005
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After I came home and crashed for a few hours, I awoke to my tv. I always turn it on as soon as I arrive and turn it off as soon as I leave. There was a segment on some news show about the supporter who sided with Kobe Bryant's victim. The interviewer was biased in a passive-aggressive way, acting like she's asking perfectly legit...
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Ramblings 2

07 April 2005
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Me + Sex = Bad consequencesMe + Celibacy = SafetyJust thinking about sex sometimes triggers uncomfortable thoughts, like punishment for having desires. I tell myself I did nothing wrong. I've been in situations where less harmful things have happened and automatically people were concerned for my safety and well-being. I compare most horrible...
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First Ramblings

05 April 2005
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Finally! This thing is working!

For the past few weeks, I've heard gossip about a friend who was charged with sexual harrassment and another friend who was jailed many years ago for "Homosexual Acts towards Young Boys". I use to think that if I knew of anyone who did these things, I wouldn't associate with them. I looked down on...
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