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I'm mixed on it all. I avoided the whole trial, or at least tried to, but of course it was hard to. I'm not entirely surprised at the verdict. A few weeks ago, I played, Off The Wall and my mom brought up the whole Michael Jackson ordeal. After a few songs, I had to change the CD; it didn't matter whether he was guilty or not,...
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More On Dissociation

13 June 2005
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Entry No.10Explore what being dissociated or "checked out" is like for you. What happens in your body when you dissociate? What do you say to yourself internally? Actually, I hum a lot. I realize it's...
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There's always a part of my brain that asked if it happened the way I think it happened? One guy intervened and told me to seek therapy for "What you believe happened", and this was moments after telling me he was giving the guy who raped me his supported because he needed it. Have you ever heard something so astounding as a friend...
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Guilty?

24 May 2005
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So, I'm at work, and one of the managers is in my way of the salad fridge. I spank his ass to get out of the way, but he's acting like this is kinky. I felt guilty and apologized, saying at Wal-Mart, I'd be arrested for sexual harrassment. I wish I hadn't done that. I was being silly but just crossing the line like that wasn't...
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I was helping my mom run errands on Saturday. I must have been triggered or something, because I couldn't get the images of the incident out of my head. The memories were swimming around and I was still bent on being present in my surroundings. I didn't want to do anything about it. It's like I had r@pe goggles before my eyes and that...
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About a couple of years ago, there was a film shot here in Winnipeg about a woman named Julie Posey and how she discovered some pedophiles going after children through the internet. Well, the movie is coming on again this month, but I won't see it because it's on a satellite station. I saw...
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Love Is Dangerous

14 May 2005
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I was on the bus yesterday, on my way to work. Whenever I see straight couples on display, I keep thinking of how normal it seems, how acceptable it is to just show gestures of affection and not think of anyone getting their panties in a twist. I have my thing with being gay because I figure if I were straight, I could hold hands, hug in public,...
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Amazed

02 May 2005
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I'm always amazed whenever I read someone else's blog or post in the forum. It's like I'm reading my thoughts too, about how I feel, about my future and past. Coming here, I can be reassured that I'm not crazy, that others have not only gone through the same thing, but that they feel the same about themselves too. I often have...
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What if you discovered you could use a time machine and could go back in time just once, for just an hour? [i]That's easy: I'd go back to that incident and beat him up. Another option would be to not leave my room for a bit, or leave earlier to make the breakfast I was going to make. I don't...
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The Twilight Zone

30 April 2005
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[i][color=red]There's this episode of The Twilight Zone I saw so many years ago. This guy ends up in court and is sentenced to die, then when he eventually gets to the electric chair, he's back in court, so his moment is repeated endlessly. Almost like Bill Murray's Groundhog's Day. I feel like that sometimes when I...
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How Comfortable Are You?

27 April 2005
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1. How did you feel when you bought this book?I was shopping at a gay/lesbian store at the time, so I was more self-conscious about walking into the store than buying the book.2. Did you hide it from other customers?The other customers were other gays and lesbians.[b]3. If you felt uncomfortable, what did you think others were...
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Who Is This Book For?

27 April 2005
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I'd bought this book a few years ago called, The Homo Handbook and found it a good read. I still haven't read all of it though, but there are some questions that I want to answer here, like with the Survivor's Guide to Sex book I'm working with. There are some excersizes I want...
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My Dad

20 April 2005
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I was out with some friends Monday night and I came in after 2am. I'd gotten a ride from a good friend of mine, so I arrived home safely. In the morning, as I was getting ready for work, my dad decides to interrogate me for coming in late. I'm 3 years away from turning 40 and I'm being treated like a teenager. He's putting his grip...
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Peace

18 April 2005
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When I plug myself into the tv or the computer, I feel at peace. I hate being interrupted by anyone. My dad comes into the computer room and wants to talk about whatever is on the news, but I just want to detach myself from the world. Right now, he's out of the house, so the house is quiet. I've even said in the past that I don't want...
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Exploring Dissociation.

18 April 2005
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Entry No.91.Explore what being dissociated or "checked out" is like for you. What happens in your body when you dissociate? What do you say to yourself internally?I never realized how much I dissociated until I had sex with women. I...
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Dumping

18 April 2005
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Sometimes I'm greatful for being on this board, sometimes I'm not. I hate that I belong to a site where I'm processing my trauma and emotional/sexual scars. I just have this huge knot in my gut and part of it is PMS. I just feel like I want to barf all my feelings until I'm empty. I hate dealing with my feelings. You can't...
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[font="Times"]Entry No.8[b]3. Imagine an activity that is physically pleasurable to you, enlivining to your senses. It could be walking on warm sand, feeling the breeze against your face, touching your partner, having oral sex. Imagine yourself in...
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Yes/Maybe/No

15 April 2005
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Entry No.7[b]2.Take a piece of paper and make three columns, titled "yes," "maybe" and "no". In the "yes" column, list all the sexual activities that you enjoy or think you would enjoy. In the "maybe"...
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Last Night On A&E

15 April 2005
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As usual, I was flipping the channels when I happened upon a profile of a serial r'ist. He talked like he was some helpful neighbour next door, talking about how he just wants to be liked, how he wishes he could help all the victims he r'd, but at the same time, he's r'd so many women and admitted he'd do it again if released...
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