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Posted by raw&burnt  
http://www.feministe.us/blog/archives/2009...-for-rape-kits/

I found this link, feministe, and discovered a few interesting blogs, including this revolting and offensive one.
What kind of mind was behind creating a charge for your own rape kit?
Is...
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Posted by raw&burnt  
I wrote this when I first registered in December of 2003. I've been here a long time, and when I went searching for my topics and entries, I found this and felt nostalgic. I thought I'd add it here.
I'm new here, so I guess I should make myself known.
I'm 35, living at home with my parents again since last year. My history...
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Loving The Internet.

27 February 2009
Posted by raw&burnt  
No matter how depressed or suicidal I get, I have the internet, especially my new Blackberry! It's still a new toy to me, but I'm beginning to see it as just another phone, at times. I was so depressed leading up to it until I had to get things changed on my bill. "Is there anything else I can help you with today?" said the...
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Happy New Year!

31 December 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
I have to figure out what exactly it is that messes up my love life. I sometimes wonder that if I'd never been violated that maybe I'd still be messed up. Regardless, I'm thoroughly disappointed with the way my life is going, what kind of person I've turned out to be and where I'm going.

I've always felt like a victiom...
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Never Ever.

07 December 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
If I ever got raped again, I would never trust anyone or go to the police: Doing something about it was the most humiliating, injurious and damaging thing to myself that's ever happened, moreso than the violation itself. I hate what happened, but I now understand why so many victims don't come forward and why rape is encouraged and...
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Hate Me

14 July 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
[font="Century Gothic"]I always feel like there's something about me to dislike, like I'm a nerd, or stupid, or vain, or just the biggest loser. Most of the time, I blame the trauma of the rape, but other times, I blame my old self. The self-loathing follows me everyday, and I feel like everyone's opinion, especially negative, is...
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How to Forget the Past

14 July 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
[font="Tahoma"]Sometimes, events that happen in our life make us feel tired, burdened, or regretful. We spend too much time thinking about a horrible deed we've committed, even though we no can no longer change it. So how do we move on from a bad experience?

Steps: Accept that it happened. It's not the easiest thing...
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Entry 11

03 June 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
1. Where do you fall on the scale of aversion/compulsion? List three instances when you avoided your sexuality and/or list when you had compulsive sex.
When I first moved away from home, it was then I discovered my need for sex. It was only a month and a half that I lost my virginity to a boy. After he gave me the whole,...
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Posted by raw&burnt  
I have the day off.
It's my second day of my period.
Cramping like a mo'fu!
Want to sleep and watch tv all day.
If I could, I'd sleep my life away.
That and watch movies and masturbate.
That last one is the only thing I can rely on to alleviate my yearnings.
I can also rely on the memory of the trauma to hitchhike onto the orgasm...
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Belief.

09 May 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
Going to church and/or believing in god doesn't sooth anything in me. Trying to believe in a higher power doesn't wash all my troubles away. This has absolutely nothing to do with any trauma that's ever happened in my entire life.

I only mention this because I'm hanging out with some fellow atheists tonight and I'm so looking...
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Deepak Chopra

09 May 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
Imagine if Deepak Chopra himself actually wrote this in my guestbook? I doubt it, but it didn't occur to me until now. How slow am I?


entry #82
name: Deepak Chopra
email:
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Life is suffering...And then it eventually kills you...When you finally come to terms with this fact, it will give you a sense of...
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Posted by raw&burnt  
You asked about what THE BIRTH ORDER BOOK says about middle children with older and younger sibs of the opposite sex... I know somewhere I’ve read comparison charts of characteristics of different family combinations, but it isn’t put that specifically in that book. What they do have is too detailed to quote… You ought to check it out at...
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Stuff I Searched For.

09 May 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
http://bamasteelmagnolia.wordpress.com/200...ly-hicks-burch/

[b]Women’s Health Part III: Frozen…Flight or Fright - Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Panic...
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Reading Several Books

14 April 2008
Posted by raw&burnt  
I found a couple of books and bought them. Feels like impulsive shopping, but one book was, "The Story of Jane Doe", about a woman in Toronto who was raped in her own place and the cops took so long and were inadequate because of their sexist attitudes; the thing that was so horrible, besides the rape, was that the cops knew there was a...
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Posted by raw&burnt  
Ever since being on Myspace and Facebook, I've been finding people, especially this year, from high school. There's a reunion happening in the fall and I plan to go out there. There's one girl who shared the same classes but we've connected. She was travelling across Canada and would stop in Winnipeg to visit then be on her way....
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Posted by raw&burnt  
Incest: A Family Tragedy
Documentary
Dir: Edward Blackoff | USA | 2006 | 96 min
Saturday June 9, 1:00 pm - PTE Colin Jackson
An intense exploration of the secret world of child sexual molestation by family members and trusted friends. Hear for the first time the truth of how...
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Should Is a Bad Word.

29 May 2007
Posted by raw&burnt  
Several months ago, probably late last year, my mom wanted to add a pomade to my scalp, so I sat in front of her in the livingroom. The tv was on and there was a grown man who played hockey as a little boy confessing that his coach molested him. I got uncomfortable. My mom caually asked, "Did that happen to you?" I felt so ashamed of...
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Whatever!

29 May 2007
Posted by raw&burnt  
I don't feel sexual enough to be anything. I don't feel lesbian, Heterosexual, Bisexual, Transsexual, anything. When I discovered my lust for lesbians, I felt I came close to my sexual expression. Since moving back home however, I've been so repressed about who I am. So often I want to move out, but I'm scared of the outside world...
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Screw'Em!

27 May 2006
Posted by raw&burnt  
I went on a date with this guy a couple of nights ago. He's also vegan and an atheist and we get along. He attempted to kiss me and I missed it, going for a hug but then double-backing on the kiss. He wants to hang out again and I said yes, to possibly seeing "The DaVinci Code" over the weekend.
This is the best date I've had in...
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Blech!

24 May 2006
Posted by raw&burnt  
I was on the bus, coming home from singing karaoke with friends. I left before 10pm eventhough I arrived just after 8pm. I didn't feel like drinking or having any other intoxicants. Even when the karaoke portion of the night started, the whole night was lame. I left because that was the best it would get. I wasn't anticipating on getting...
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