The 3 Year Itch.

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The 3 Year Itch.

11 November 2005

Posted by raw&burnt

I'm into that feeling of not wanting to have sex again. After the 3 year celibacy marathon broken by two episodes with a man, I still haven't gotten closer to wondering what's wrong with me. I wish I hadn't had sex, as needed as it was. He's out of town and hasn't called. I hate shit like this. I'm back to where I was before I came out. I was even rolling over the partners I had in the past, the male and female, the consentual and non, and I'm no better off with this guy. I doubt he even cares about me. I've been agitated lately and this may be part of it. I don't know. I wish I could have sex with a woman again, but there aren't any I'm interested in and none are interested in me either. The 3 year itch got to me. I do want to find love, but I'm so defeated about the search and the idea of anyone finding me worthy. I hate feeling worthless, but I was aching. Here goes another 3 years of no action! Either that or it's sex again with this man.

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