For the past few weeks, I've heard gossip about a friend who was charged with sexual harrassment and another friend who was jailed many years ago for "Homosexual Acts towards Young Boys". I use to think that if I knew of anyone who did these things, I wouldn't associate with them. I looked down on the people who supported the frienemy who raped me, and now karma has made it so I look at things differently. Even when I saw the movie, The Woodsman, my mind was reelling as I left the theatre. When a horrible thing like this happens to you, you don't know who to trust, but at the same time, I don't want anyone to go through what I went through by encouraging and befriending them. What do you do when you're friends with a predator? I see them differently now. Sometimes I tell myself that maybe it's all a rumour, but then again, I was disregarded as vengeful and had my words disrespected. I was just looking for my book called, "The Survivor's Guide to Sexual Heallng" or something to that effect. To think, if I tried logging onto this thing and it didn't work, again, I was going to LiveJournal. I'll have more to write another day. In the meantime, I live with bottling the trauma, dealing with my sexuality and the triggers that erupt. I can't even feeling horny without ugly memories following it. It's latched onto me. I hate living with it!