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I have wanted a t for the longest time, but after the last one....I just couldn't endure that shit again. She's an old friend I used to go to school with but really didn't know too well. more of an acquaintance, i guess. Anyways, my mind is scattered in so many directions with so much drama going on in my life....I just can't hardly do anything. I had to talk to someone. I told my husband that he and his son needed to find their own place. I was tired of being used. I walked outside on the front porch the other night and they were both smoking cigarettes. I just blew up. I can't afford to put gas in my car but they can spend $20 a day a cigs and sodas. It just made me wanna puke.
The worst part is...I don't know if i really want them to go. I just want them to grow up!!! I'm tired of being the only one to give up the things I need so we have food and gas and things we need!!! But somehow all this still makes me feel guilty. I just want to be his equal...to have him help me and not have to make a huge fuss out of everything. he can't even take his damn dishes into the kitchen, or pick up his clothes off the floor, or empty the trash. i bet if he thought about it, he'd even get me to wipe his ass for him.
I hate being used....that's what it feels like and then he turns it on me....and I feel guilty. i'm so confused.
The worst part is...I don't know if i really want them to go. I just want them to grow up!!! I'm tired of being the only one to give up the things I need so we have food and gas and things we need!!! But somehow all this still makes me feel guilty. I just want to be his equal...to have him help me and not have to make a huge fuss out of everything. he can't even take his damn dishes into the kitchen, or pick up his clothes off the floor, or empty the trash. i bet if he thought about it, he'd even get me to wipe his ass for him.
I hate being used....that's what it feels like and then he turns it on me....and I feel guilty. i'm so confused.
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