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Posted by Steve  
OK
Time to tell.
I am going to start at the beginning and just post a bit at time, Lets see how I go.

Grade 4.
I transferred to another school for the start of grade 4. I had some sort of delayed development stuff and couldn't read or write. The other kids found out when I was asked to get up in front of the class and read something. I was...
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I just got back from the Dr's. I am dangerously close to being diabetic.
He just out and said that i had to loose major weight.
He knows about the depression, sleep clinick and T, he set them all up. He is also the one who helped me with special concideration fro uni exams.
He knows that i am way past the end of my rope and yet he just sais I...
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triggers and flashbacks

19 February 2008
Posted by Steve  
It seems to be the time of year for them.
Iseem to be getting triggered by movies or stupid actions when much=king arround with friends.
I just don't understand why things that wouldn't have triggered me last week are now hitting me hard
I know the events had similarities to my past and that they have often made me uncomfortable but to...
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I have someone there for me

23 January 2008
Posted by Steve  
This is something I have never experienced before.
I was down the beach drinking with friends. Bohemium Rhapsody came on and I got really triggered by the words. I sat there for a while just quietly whilst everyone else sang the next few songs. I said I needed to go to the toilet and left. Instead of going to the toilet, i went down onto the beach...
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problems with the R word

16 January 2008
Posted by Steve  
Ok I am having real trouble with using the R word with respect to myself. It seems stupid cos I already have. I have posted in the types of SA forum but I have skirted arroung the word. It just feels like if I don't use it then it didn't happen.

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telling someone

07 January 2008
Posted by Steve  
Ok here are the details.
It was christmas day and I went back up the beach after lunch at my sisters house.
when I got bck to the caravan, I saw that some friends had arrived so I went in to see them. I was friends with Holly but she had moved interstate so I was saying Hi to her little Brother who had just turned 18. To my supprise, Holly had...
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I told someone

30 December 2007
Posted by Steve  
I have broken the silence and tole someone, who is very supportive, I will post about it when I have time but woo hoo, a big step forward. Thanks to everyone here for your help

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Posted by Steve  
there are a number of things that have happened reciently, some good , some bad.

I have started T and have had 2 sessions with one in a few weeks.
The antidepressants are sort of working in that I haven't teared up for a while. but I still want to die, I don't think Iam at risk, I just feel used up.

I have had to come to turms with...
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progress

12 November 2007
Posted by Steve  
Started the anti depressents on friday.
I worked on the rally of melbourne over the weekend and I was a bit worried incase I had side effects.
I didn't seem to have any though and i think it was god that i went to the rally. I was simply too busy to worry and as i am a total petrol head, the weekend of car racing was a welcome break for me.

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Posted by Steve  
I was talking away here when my mum came up behind me and saw what I was doing. not good. I was able to quickly change to another screen but she kept asking me about chat, I don't know if she saw the for survivors on the side or if she understands what it means but I was a little worried.
I really can't afford for her to know. I am going...
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