Can this really be real
I do not feel that I did the wrong thing, but at the same time I feel incredibly lost. I was suppossed to be getting married on January 17, 2015 and instead I sit here unsure of anything about my future anymore. I hate this feeling and I am honestly lost at how to deal with any of this anymore because the reality of the truth is that I am functioning as if nothing is wrong when all I want to do is scream at the top of my lungs. I know I should be grateful that I least I figured this all out before I got married and had kids, but it is at the same time an extremem struggle.
I for once in my life felt that I was heading to a different direction with so much healing it is incredible. Yet here I am in the debths of another kind of hurt. I have had to come to the realization that this is not the same kind of hurt and pain that I have felt before with all of the trauma issues, but at the same time this is an extremly hurtful and painful period. Now I have a wedding dress that I love sitting in my closet unsure of anything about the future.
Well I guess in the long run all these feelings really don't matter, and the reality is I have to work on my homework for this dumb course. I just wish that I could get this out of my head.
I am sorry that this is not related to what is normally on this website, I just needed a safe place to post so I could get some of this out of me instead of the possiblity of exploding anytime soon. I guess for now I need to just remember the words that are in this picture.