I am finding it really really tough to open up to my counselor. I can give the facts pretty easily but I just can't get out of my cycle of being in complete control of hiding my emotions. I just want to open up to her and tell her how broken I am... How I feel so disgusting, at fault, dirty, tempting... everything.
Maybe tomorrow at my next session I'll be able to open up a tad more.
*Sigh* Here's hoping, fingers are crossed.