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Letting us down

Posted by jsm_pdx , 15 August 2014 · 52 views

Dear Jenny,

I feel like lately I've been letting you down (which means I'm letting myself down).

I've worked so hard on trying to heal but now everything has just come crashing down. I don't know how to settle down and make things better.

Talking about what happened when I was little just turned everything upsidedown. What I thought I knew isn't real...


Family visit *possible TW*

Posted by jsm_pdx , 29 June 2014 · 50 views

Dear Jenny*,

This weekend is difficult and confusing. I love my family so much but the inequities since disclosing what happened has caused so much pain. It continues to cause pain.

I think it's important to tryy to remember a few things.

The abuse was not your fault.
You don't need to get over it. You may never get over it. But maybe someday you wi...


Memories 6/26/14

Posted by jsm_pdx , 26 June 2014 · 45 views

Dear Jenny,

I thought about you today. I wish I could remember more of my childhood. There are parts missing. I think when my mind blocked out the abuse it blocked out other important events that happened.

I do remember that you were a rockin' ball player. First base, clean-up hitter. No one could hit a softball further. .... That's cool. Good job!



Dear Jenny, Part I

Posted by jsm_pdx , 25 June 2014 · 65 views

Dear Jenny*,

Today I thought of your during T. I realized how lost and lonely it must have been.

Being forgotten. Having all of your memories buried. Being rejected. By the family and by me. By me.

I should have realized how scared your were. Realized that you needed me. That you still need me.

I wish I could tell you that I'll always be here for y...

September 2015

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