But it is finally time for some smiles. I got so fed up the other night with this "journey" and just wanted to be done with it. I was so determined to be intimate with my husband and feel good about it and not get scared. I knew for both of us we just needed to be with each other and enjoy some progress. And it happened. I won't say we had an amazing night with no problems, but after getting married and having no enjoyable intimacy in our first month married, it felt fabulous to be with my husband. I love him so much and I just want to say that no matter how much I complain and get frustrated with this process I am so proud to be married to him and am more encouraged now that I ever thought I could be.
Thanks to everyone who has said a little prayer for me and thought about me. I really appreciate the support, we could not have started this journey without you.