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Posted by Strugglingteen , 30 June 2014 · 129 views

I keep looking inside myself. But why? Inside there is guilt , shame , anger , pain. Inside there is confusion. Inside there is no love. Inside is darker than the world around me. Inside there is the old me surrounded by all the negative. Inside I can't breathe. Inside shows me giving up on me.  So what's so good  about my inside? Why do I crave...



Posted by Strugglingteen , 29 June 2014 · 106 views

I feel lost. Searching for answers to unspoken questions. Searching for reasons to hold on. Searching to find me. Yet I always end up lost. I reach out my hand to the ones who could help yet they don't see it. Why can't they see it! My hurt, my pain, my struggle. Invisible. Lost. The open minded girl , always happy wearing a true smile, she feared nothing...


Is it bad?

Posted by Strugglingteen , 25 June 2014 · 100 views

Is it bad that I hate myself more than him?
is it bad that I still feel worthless?
is it bad that I just wanna give up?
is it bad that I think I'll never be me again?



Posted by Strugglingteen , 23 June 2014 · 119 views

Stuck in a world with little to no voice
in a unhappy home with no choice
tears soak her pillow each and every night
stuck in the darkness with no light in sight
so she gives up in school instead
she tries to ease the stress in her head 
no one will help her she feels alone and afraid 
she cried and blames god for making her this way
she keeps h...


No sleep for me

Posted by Strugglingteen , 13 June 2014 · 91 views

Every night. After a hour. No sleep for me.
Every dream. After a fairytale. Starts my nightmare. No sleep for me.
I awake hot and sweaty, tears soak everything, no sleep is good for me.
I sleep to feel safe yet my nightmares delete the good. It seems that until all bad stops and the horrible nightmares go away.....there will be no sleep for me 


When can I ?

Posted by Strugglingteen , 12 June 2014 · 113 views

When can I sleep peacefully? 
When can I love again?
When can I trust?
When can I cry without be ashamed?
When can I forgive the ones who knew?
When can I stand up for myself?
When can I say no?
When can I stop the others?
When can I be free?
When can I be me?



Posted by Strugglingteen , 09 June 2014 · 106 views

It's my birthday I'm supposed to be happy yet all i did was curl in a ball and all I did was cry...it still feels like every guy has power over me and the same question is why?


Can I ?

Posted by Strugglingteen , 03 June 2014 · 116 views

Can I just stay curled in a ball?
can I just cry away my days?
can I just lay in my brokenness?
can I just not be me?



Posted by Strugglingteen , 02 June 2014 · 121 views

Today is the day I feel scared and weak
today is the day he walks away free..... 



Posted by Strugglingteen , 01 June 2014 · 88 views

When is it going to get better?
when will I be able to sleep?
when will the nightmares go away?
when can I walk without fear?
when will I be happy?
When can I be me? 

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