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Things aren't going my way

Posted by PinkWalls , 05 November 2014 · 66 views

I've noticed in the past that, when something isnt meant for me, it becomes nearly impossible to get my hands on it.
The first tijme this happened, is when i tried to study nursing in university, but they had these rules where my department wouldnt let me choose a subject from another department. Long story short, i had to see a professor who had t...


Happy birthday to me :)

Posted by PinkWalls , 02 November 2014 · 70 views

Doesn't feel very special, no one special around to celebrate it with. Then again, i hardly ever did celebrate it. But i think this year, i'd like to do something a little different. Maybe actually do something for myself, I was thinking a new hair color, get a new dress. I think i deserve it. But that means using the subway again :( Let's cross fingers i...


Good news and TW

Posted by PinkWalls , 30 July 2014 · 56 views

It's been a while since I've been here. today I experienced a lot of triggers, starting with a really bad nightmare, of a guy, though I didn't recognize his face, was drunk and because of the way I was dressed, started to come at me, pulling me, grabbing me, there were people around, but no one helped.
And another while sitting in a bus, watching a...



Posted by PinkWalls , 07 July 2014 · 64 views

My friend has asked me for forgiveness. When I initially asked her what happened for her mate to be in my room after she left, I let her assume everything, she's a smart woman, I never got into any details.
Since she's replied with long messages saying how much she wants to see me but can't, saying how much she's been crying, and thinking about lea...


dreading weekends

Posted by PinkWalls , 21 June 2014 · 67 views

i used to love fridays and couldn't wait to get off work and start my weekend.
but now...i hate it, i feel anxious every time. I've had advice of going out and keeping busy,
but i hate going out now, i dont want to see friends or go to public places, i also have no motivation to start hobbies.

I'm not sure what to do about me, feels like a part of...


bus rides

Posted by PinkWalls , 09 June 2014 · 82 views

A high school boy repeatedly pushed his crotch up agaist my shoulder in the bus today. i dot know if it was on purpose or not, the bus is usually full, though wasnt as full at the time.... decided to get off and walk instead.

Intentional or not, cant help the feeling of wanting to rip my shoulder off. Been scratching at it repeatedly trying to get rid of...


Bad news

Posted by PinkWalls , 05 June 2014 · 102 views

The DNA results came out, as I thought...I waited till too late to get the kit done,
There was no DNA. I know I could've gone through with the charges if there was... but now... it's so complicated .
..going to prove everyone right if I don't do anything...
yes...I'm a coward.
....rode an elevator with a drunken man that kept s...


Back to the Womens' Centre and Orthopedist

Posted by PinkWalls , 22 May 2014 · 56 views

Two weeks ago I was taken by the womens' centre that I went to for help to get me checked up. I was taken to the orhtopedist cause, while there werent any bruises on my shoulders left, there was still pain, and i found out a chunck of collr bone was missing..it was chipped.
My visit...
First i got x-rayed by a guy who couldn't speak english...


Stupid oblivious people (rant)

Posted by PinkWalls , 20 May 2014 · 82 views

So, last time i mentioned that the co-worker (that bitch) who broke my trust and told people, about my story behind my back without even a consideration to talk to me first.
Since then, she's grown in her role as 'that bitch'.
Where to start..... When i moved apartments, and she shows up while I'm packing, even after i told her not to.....


My anger

Posted by PinkWalls , 16 May 2014 · 82 views

I made the move to my apartment today.
And as I expected I couldn't keep my emotions in check. My co-worker noticed this and offered to help out, since she was the only one who knew at work anyway, I thought...sure I didn't want to go there alone anyway. At that same time, I noticed something strange between another co-worker and the one who knew....I ask...

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