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Good news and TW

Posted by PinkWalls , 30 July 2014 · 129 views

It's been a while since I've been here. today I experienced a lot of triggers, starting with a really bad nightmare, of a guy, though I didn't recognize his face, was drunk and because of the way I was dressed, started to come at me, pulling me, grabbing me, there were people around, but no one helped.
And another while sitting in a bus, watching a construction worker at work, that smell at a construction site, which I cant really describe, really got me.
But I can't let this get to me now. Since for the first time in a while, I've got good news.
Just the other day, I had a thought..."I have to put up with this for another 6 months." Was having a bad day with my co worker, the one that knows, and spread it to another co worker, also previously referred to as 'that bitch'.
Anyway, the same day, a few hours later, I got a call saying I will be transferred to a different department. They called me first before notifying my superiors, to get my opinion on location. Of course I said, far away, anywhere, far away. And like that, my wish was granted. A day later, my co worker tells me, they received a letter saying I will be leaving to a different department, I couldn't let her know I knew already, so I pretended to be sad.
A new start. It's what I've been hoping for a long time, to get away from these people who know no concept of privacy, who give me pity looks on a daily basis, and have hushed tones. They may not realize just how well I understand the language, so I often listen to the things they say while I'm still in the room :/
But no more of this, I get a fresh start, new area, new colleagues, new environment, and no contact whatsoever with the previous. This time I will be careful of who I trust, if I trust at all. But I couldn't be happier about this, I really feel going to a workplace where I can feel comfortable again, a place where nobody knows, i think it will help me a great deal on my anxiety and healing.
Wish me luck on my new journey :) Looking forward to it :)

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