but now...i hate it, i feel anxious every time. I've had advice of going out and keeping busy,
but i hate going out now, i dont want to see friends or go to public places, i also have no motivation to start hobbies.
I'm not sure what to do about me, feels like a part of me just doesn't want to heal, just doesn't want to be happy, if i am happy again i feel guilty for it, makes me think if I'm happy now, then what happened to me was okay. if I'm able to be happy, if I'm able to forget what happened for one day, then the guilt immediately sets in, the reason I'm able to be this way, is because what happened is okay. but deep down i know its not. making myself truly believe though...