Today, I did something for me. It was really supposed to be therapy him, but today; I think he was my support. I am always the strong one. I make him give effort, encourage him when he wants to quit, and love him when he fails.
Today, I put my money where my mouth is.
Today, in a world of silence; we connected.
Today, we went zip lining and proved our doubters wrong.
I sent that little boy to scale the 60 ft telephone pole with an "Im proud of you" and "you can do it." I waited and waited for him to fly over me, cheering his name with pride as I could see his black sneakers grace the bright blue sky. He is one of the bravest and most underestimated little boys I know. Today, he proved his doubters wrong. When it was my turn I jokingly announced to the staff that " I couldn't let an eleven year old show me up" even though I felt like I was walking to my death. He sent me to scale the 60 ft telephone pole with something to prove. I was the last to go and everyone's lunch time counted on me. As I began to scale the pole, fear and anxiety began to attack my spirit. With each rung, I pulled myself up with "this is your moment" comforting my scared soul. I told myself that I was valuable, strong, and brave. This was mine. After finally reaching the top with a few "oh shits" later, I was facing my fear. With a little self coaxing, I let go of it all. Today, I was not paralyzed with anxiety, crippled with fear, or destroyed with negative self talk.
Today, I felt amazing.