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Air, Fire, Water, Earth 12/3/09

Posted by vettech , 19 February 2014 · 70 views

        As i inhale down into the depths of my belly, the movement conjures up a stir of echoes that connects with the exhalation    
        and emerges with the wise whisperings of my soul.  I repeat this process until the natural flow of the movem...


Un-remembered 12/16/09

Posted by vettech , 19 February 2014 · 40 views

The bright red blood spattered across the irridescent snow.
Opposites of a sort, violence against purity, the contrast between evil and good.
The warm blood mixes with the cold snow, fading the line of right and wrong.
Confusing the knowingness born of the soul, creating messengers of doubt and confusion.
The red droplets stain the spirit of...


Journal entry from 11/26/2009

Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 38 views

As i read other survivors stories in "The Courage to Heal", my anxiety level begins to rise.  The reality of how many people that this has happened to is overwhelming.  The reality that it happened to me is devestating.  My chest feels weighted, my breathing becomes shallow.  The ever familiar panic starts to creep down my arm.  M...



Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 34 views

Soon the ground will be draped with the white veil that cleanses the earth.
Just as the black shroud of depression shall come again and cover my true self.
Both will bring diminished light and a sense of isolated hibernation.
Beneath the snow, the vegetation slumbers in preparation for opening day.
Awaiting the warmth of the sun to greet her growth...


The creations

Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 38 views

The thoughts flow through me on a river of discontent, filling my heart until it spills out on paper.  I get a word or a sentence at a time and it runs circles in my mind until it leaks out.  It taps the back of my mind, like a child kicking the seat at a movie theater.  Relentlessly, it will not give me peace until it is indelible.  T...


Stolen moments

Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 30 views

Stolen moments in time - a flash in the span of a life
Passions breath on the back of my neck, stealing the air from my heart
I long for my beloved, the one who never came
The what if's, should have been's and possibly could be's
My heart aches for the stolen glances across the room
The light brush of a warm hand over my skin
The cave...


The Process

Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 27 views

She walks in that place between light and dark
Balancing on the verge of something more
Teetering, dangerously on the edge of the unknown
Trudging through the fog that is her own mind
Searching for the soul that will make it all clear
Her body does not feel like her own
She longs for the days she could make it disappear
That sweet sensation of pure nothin...


The Secret

Posted by vettech , 18 February 2014 · 45 views

Innocent and betrayed by hands that she well knew.
Kept your secret and claimed it as she grew.
Held it deep within her until it was her own.
Covered it over with flesh and blood and bone.
Face upon face she revealed to the crowd, 
Never the voice that was screaming out loud.
Choking and aching and dying inside.
"All is well...

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