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The Sleeping Issue

Posted by Mand , 03 March 2014 · 130 views

It seems incredible to me that so many of us have sleeping issues. Is this because of the bed? But most of my abuse did not happen in a bed. Is this because of the nightmares? Why does subconscious processing come with such intense emotion? The heart races, I am covered in sweat. There is a sour taste in my mouth. I awake with a jump. Adrenaline is coursi...


And so the pendulum swings back

Posted by Mand , 03 March 2014 · 86 views

Well. Isn't healing just the strangest thing. I have been good today. Really good. After such a fluctuating weekend. But I have realised that these abrupt changes of mood are very common for me. They just appear more heightened as my lows are so very low. Alas, yesterday, I SH'd. I felt so awful, so hateful of myself. Like I had failed, been bad. I had be...

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