Finally brave enough to visit my house of Mand's
Maternal Mand and The Bad Parent are sat together at the kitchen table. They are talking and the Bad Parent is not angry at the moment. This is a first for me. Most unusual. Wicked Mand...... She is still there. She is peaking out from behind a door. Hiding. But planning mischief. I will have to be aware of her over the coming days. I have a feeling she might be planning another assault, another test for my T. And that would be unfair. The I that is ME must not let her. My T has proved her worth and safety time and time again. She does not need testing any more. I am glad I checked in- I need to contemplate why wicked Mand would want to still behave like this with her.
The inner bitch - the stroppy teen. They are listening to loud music in the bedroom they now share. They are being nonchalant - but they are very aware about what is happening. The inner bitch got out sometime. She is smirking. I have bruises and cuts that I can't remember doing. I accept that she got out and I am trying to not be cross with her. I am a bit disappointed in ME for not stopping her, but I accept I have been through a lot since last Thursday, and I guess it is inevitable that at this early stage - some of my Mand's will be wily enough to escape MY control.
So actually , it is quite a peaceful scene. And that is good.