The Sleeping Issue
I used to live the nightmares, they were real and vivid. Now I just awake with a feeling of dread. My mind is bubbling over, but there is no coherency to my thought. I remember no detail of my dreamscape. I just am awake and ready to run. Instantly. Yet often I cannot move. This is processing of deeply suppressed things. I do not want to remember. My T says I am protecting myself. This trauma is hidden and hidden deep. Given what I can remember, I am happy for this status quo to be maintained. If I have hidden it from me, there is a darn good reason. I just wish that it didn't happen any more. But it does not appear to be in my control.