I told you about the memories.
The were a deluge,
What was a small drop,
Became a torrent,
And I am being battered by them,
I can't control them,
No more than I can describe colour to a blind person,
Or hold a handful of water.
I can be mid conversation with my son,
And like a cranky...
In the Garden in my head.
But you became an unexpected gardener,
Who began to sew seeds.
Seeds that sometimes died,
Sometimes flourished instantly,
Sometimes they lay dormant.
But these were strong.
Maybe the most powerful ones of all.
They sent down their roots, down, down, down,
The blankness is in me.
The blankness surrounds me.
I am, I have become, the blankness.
It started as a small spot,
An oasis of clam amidst the turmoil of my mind,
It has taken over.
Like a tendril that grew and grew,
The blankness has taken over.
It is calm and soothing,
Like the silken feel of water on...
Family dilemmas, being human. Bit of a pity party at the end.....15 February 2015
The safest of therapy sessions13 February 2015
*TW* swearing and a plea for support.12 February 2015
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