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Depressing

Posted by Linnaeus , 02 July 2015 · 5 views

Back to seeing premeditated child abusduction, the sex abuse by a family member and that awful group in Nebraska that threatened my family and carried on with a crime.


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No Fear isn't an act

Posted by Linnaeus , 01 July 2015 · 10 views

...bt it is a reality.
 
Preparation and conditioning - tested under abuse - it served to keep me strong and survive what was to come in a way.
 
 
Why would a man become so possessed that he abuses his son? I blew his cover. As a child I reiterated what other members of the family joked about. When the specialist took over standing with me...


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Syndicates

Posted by Linnaeus , 30 June 2015 · 7 views

Read into human trafficking (but relieve such a label from the corporate head hunting service my father relied upon) and how life unfolded - how I met my wonderful wife, a descendant of a famous confederate leader per the "legacy", having married odd southern heritage and how other pieces of my father's life were arranged and how my life was arr...


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Organized Criminal Abuse of Religion

Posted by Linnaeus , 30 June 2015 · 10 views

Omaha Nebraska had a scandal long ago which I had not known about when it occurred yet I had noted news. Various allegations descended from the period. During my teens and early 20s I was in fear due to events surrounding car bombings, stories of the wars going on between rival organized crime factions, the rampant perception of police corruption and...


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A Perspective

Posted by Linnaeus , 29 June 2015 · 8 views

One has to look at fact and attempt to understand. A cover up with a terrorist incident occurred and a agency had problems - 30 years of them while every resource went into burying the issue. It's hard to conceive and many persons are weak minded. Caught in a vacuum with various snags for persuasion or hooking sentiment even professionals bog down and are...


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Odd

Posted by Linnaeus , 29 June 2015 · 8 views

Profiled as one sympathetic with Jewish causes there was notable resentment among persons and professionals (a professional could know I'd contacted the Cult Clinic of New York many years ago and not know our churches alliance with Jews for Jesus controversy as  child where odd things passed inside the church).
 
My contact with Survivors Networ...


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Note

Posted by Linnaeus , 28 June 2015 · 10 views

For each action a reaction occurs. One individual can see multiple traumatic events and have natural draining with a natural connection in nature removed. 2 x 2 x 2 (two situations, family life and work) times (conflict and a family undermining work and economic security) times (gang harassment and attack / sabotage of personal life and social w...


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Not Good

Posted by Linnaeus , 27 June 2015 · 14 views

He said she said games in the racket had a tie to a university and me being told, " guess who i know?" - the jesuit tie was i guess important. I was a young person then being told this during trouble effecting our family in which the fbi requested i testify and i would have had i gone to court when requested only prosecution never came. Now you'd hope as...


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Crazy About Life, Truth, Justice, Equality, and forgiveness

Posted by Linnaeus , 27 June 2015 · 20 views

Deprive an individual of adequate care ad leave them in a state of suffering (which is what my family did) - from childhood abuses ad neglect to added things which enforced a invented demon of sorts (they knew of the creating going on - at least in a participatory level having levels of participation), if hating the victim and smiling over pain as some do...


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Me. Dumb or concerned - just ignoroant?

Posted by Linnaeus , 26 June 2015 · 30 views

Made as a invention under unusual conditions rumors were created. Life isn't kind - I have to note a very concerned and caring piece of history where people work hard to assure life, security and justice. "Life" (I have made decisions slanted to pro life in my own life only after my significant other made her decision - order of operations - then I'd enco...


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The Dysfunction / Trying To Function

Posted by Linnaeus , 25 June 2015 · 9 views

I know I survived. That is to my credit and I am quite lucky. Some like my insights and decudtions - learning as I process things.
 
Witnessing a surrogate sister and my mother in 1982 fall prey to defamation while I was set up during events troubling my father had had character assassination. Defamation run by smeared vile rumors. Union busting and...


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America's (and the theocracy) - War On Sex?

Posted by Linnaeus , 25 June 2015 · 26 views

You have to be kidding me right? A war on sex?! Who would have imagined?
 
Oh it's got some relativity. Reading a criticism of Pandys last night and seeing guilt and control over a time line to being for human nature and fertility crosses worn by Black Sabbath (rather than prim and proper missionary only sex for purposes of pro creation - and a terro...


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ehh

Posted by Linnaeus , 24 June 2015 · 31 views

Life is an art. A duality theme was scribed on the bathroom door at RW (that treatment place). I freaked out a bit and complained - it was gone very soon. That was a greeting, a scared kid who had secrets and wigged over graffiti in the community lav. Why did I freak out? Because there was a drawing in that bathroom of a face having two parts, a dark...


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Never quit

Posted by Linnaeus , 24 June 2015 · 19 views

Ethnicity is over rated. Religion does things I don't get - but it's belief you cant force people to change.
 
Told a story long long ago as a Gemini it got deep with mind control and suspicious activities. Caucasus and as I was told I had a twin , as one born in June to the head games laid out...MC / CSA, then trauma, terror and all of it, then...


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Mutterances

Posted by Linnaeus , 24 June 2015 · 23 views

A "domestic terrorist" can not be labeled In the South Carolina church shooting? That bothers me. Not only was a statement noted tying to an organization, there is ongoing ATF investigations. This to me, considering the OK City bombing and history tying to the mid west where I lived (and all other things) is a terrorist act.
 
We call Moslems who act...


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Mind Over Matter Demands

Posted by Linnaeus , 24 June 2015 · 19 views

I hate to think I was homophobic. It was quite scary the proposition given me though. Working on CSA after rehab and ending up with a boss who was criticized by members of his own gay community assures my righteous homophobia. Has anyone ever heard of "righteous homophobia"? I'm laughing as I say this. Righteous anger is applicable to issues then and now...


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Trying To Diagram How I Was Suckered

Posted by Linnaeus , 23 June 2015 · 22 views

As if "free love, liberal sex and freedom got into our town history. In fact it did. This was also something questionable in values instilled with a therapist and how my raising went.
 
Being told of the history one town away in a rural area in 1982 left a tale of a fountain of youth, prostitution and sex magic run by organized crime and the old crim...


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What is concern?

Posted by Linnaeus , 23 June 2015 · 23 views

A friend with a name similar to that of a 19th century renter who made history books had introduced me to my girl friend after a break up in 1988. It was a very odd time. In 1990 I stopped by her house to visit. A van parked in her drive way I had never seen brought concern. I rang the bell and her younger sister answered. A older man was visiting who loo...


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Scholarships Available

Posted by Linnaeus , 23 June 2015 · 19 views

Survivors Network For Those Abused By Priests is spreading the word on a scholarship fund for persons who identify as a survivor of sexual abuse and wish to pursue the arts. This scholarship is being made available through the Judith Dawn Memorial Fund For The Arts which is online. Application deadlines are Aug 15. For questions contact SNAP NET...


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Part of history

Posted by Linnaeus , 23 June 2015 · 16 views

Leaving Nebraska with insight of John DeCamp's book during church scandal did not register in so much as what he wanted to know about the Monarch Project. I called him telling him the history tied to me in brief introduction. There seemed a discontent with his receptiveness. In 2002 - 03 a lot was going on.
 
It was my father who was abusive who...






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