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Posted by whodatninja , 18 May 2014 · 123 views

still thinking and reflecting and all that blah (birthday is 2 days away). my family is annoyed with me because i don't hear them (i am deaf in one ear, hard of hearing in the other, but i'm good at reading lips. so when i complain about not hearing them because they keep standing on the wrong side, they think i'm lying), also that my memory is going bad. i hate being treated like an idiot child. the doctors already warned that i'll have memory troubles from too many bangs to the head and the hard drinking i do. yet family want to keep the veneer of 'normalcy' and anything wrong with me i have to fake out its existence.
 
"keep working on your projects honey, you'll feel better" is the mantra i keep hearing from my mother. it's an uphill battle. i've been trying my best to market my books, but i hate talking to people (i have a stutter) and the whole social media thing is a full time job in itself! i was up from 9a to 1a online trying to network. after 3 days of it, i'm totally burned out. i wish i could afford new cover art and a marketing team. i fucking hate being poor.
 
i'm tired. i got chores to do today (sunday is chore day since i'm not a church person). i don't feel like doing work of any sort today. but shit needs to get done.



:metoyou:

Seems like a really hard row to hoe and lots of challenge. I feel badly that your family doesn't get it and doesn't  try to help you more.

 

I hope you do get what you desire.

 

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