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stupid dreams

Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 39 views

i have to accept I'm getting old and that all the dreams I have are just stupid unobtainable ideas. I have to accept I'm going to die in this town being a lowdown nobody that people keep kicking around. I know nobody will miss me. nobody misses a crazy person. alcohol poisoning is my best shot. they already blame me as a failure in life since I'm an "alcoholic". so drinking to excess until my body shuts down wouldn't be surprising at all. I don't see the point of finishing my projects. nobody gave a damn about it. family just pat me on the head and said oh that's nice. t says it's good therapy. my writing must be shit. I had to inflate my own sales (buying copies to give away) just to show family I'm not a loser. but it was just another lie. I'm tired of lying all the time. I don't like this at all. I am in my right mind why does everyone keep telling me I'm not?

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