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Posted by whodatninja , 20 February 2014 · 107 views

drop by therapist office super pissed because the bastard didn't call like he said and his phone off again. I left a very angry message yet again. saw psych who upped my meds. he asked me what was wrong and I told him I'm not wasting my breath and give me my damn pills and I will see him next month. I'm sick of being ignored by my therapist and my mental health team are so disfunctional they don't even speak to each other. I had to cuss everybody out today because nothing's getting done. I told them if they won't help me I'm going back on H. I've had it with this shit their shit and my family shit. I'm sick of not being listened to. I want help. I ask for help and get ignored. the fuck am I paying insurance for if I keep getting nothing but the runaround and dumb fucks talking out the side of their neck???

Been there. It gets twisted. I wonder - was I the rubber band on the model plane others sought to fly when I said I was not able to fly? I was a witness in a major federal case. Do I try to fly? Yes, I have and done well. If they had blinders on, I was grounded and saw that when they sought to aim that plane with the rubber band all would up, the energy expected was to pride their profession - but they missed my point. So, then it must be something of a perception bias which didn't meet my own. I really relate to your swearing - that is much like the "FTW" attitude I had (which mirrors - I think - the boundary history and violations which abuse victims are intruded by). "Fuck me? No fuck you!" and then that seemingly endless hopelssness and demoralization we are patterned in. Add, I usually have a sense of urgency about things - which I think is reminiscent of the stressors I became adapted to as a child - if others don't feel it then we think something is wrong and it turns back on us? Maybe. I don't know - but I feel your frustration. Hope you have better days ahead and find peace. Thanks.

I've never had a decent therapist.  Most of them have their own f'ed up issues.  

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