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trying not to snap

Posted by whodatninja , 10 February 2014 · 55 views

RJ came over with his usual shit disturbing. i hid in the bathroom biting my hand and rocking and trying to keep down the awful feelings i feel at the moment. namely hatred. once i collected myself, i went and said hi to him in the kitchen. he saw something was wrong with me but i flashed the most brilliant smile and said everything's cool. though i wanted to pick up a knife and fucking stab him. i had to leave the kitchen. my thoughts are getting dangerous. it wouldn't be the first time i tried to stab him though, i tried 3 years ago and he didn't talk to me for 2. my neck hurts so bad right now. i hate hearing his voice. my whole body is tense. and to think of what i have to go through this friday. i'm dying. and i brought it on myself.

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