i don't have a life anymore. i'm doomed to just being used like a damn sheet of toilet paper. it's already too late for me to be saved. suck it up and die inside and keep pushing forward. who am i kidding about breaking free from this? fucking bastards stole my life from me from the jump. keep faking my way hoping it gets better. keep faking my way with a fake smile despite how bad i hurt. keep faking my way and pretend everything's fine despite getting the shit kicked out of me, despite the shiner and just lie about it because telling the truth don't do a damn thing. nobody believes me in the first place. just keep faking until my heart stops.
i so could use some H right now. fuck... i just don't want to feel anything anymore.