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Posted by whodatninja , 08 February 2014 · 55 views

RJ texted and called me all night. i'm glad i turned off my phone. he would've bullied me to come over. knowing my weakness, i would've said yes despite my hatred of him. i didn't sleep very well. the nightmares are much much worse now. between him, and this month, and the cold, and CC's birthday coming up and the guilt and the constant pain and the fear and dealing with all this shit and all my work assignments, it's a wonder i'm keeping it together. i'm smoking so much now, i'm up to four packs a week. definitely stressed out. krishna help me. i need to stay awake today and not pass out from exhaustion. the last thing i need is to go to the hospital. i will never get out if i go in now. especially with my mind messed up like this.

Feb 08 2014 02:37 PM

thanks :)

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