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sick as hell

Posted by whodatninja , 07 February 2014 · 136 views

i'm so tired of fighting sleep. i hadn't heard anything from my t all week since i told him. i'm so sick of the nightmares, it's making it hard to concentrate during the day when i have to work. i'm getting behind in my work. i wish i could just tell my story and be done with it. i realise i can't even form the words, let alone type them, hell, can't even say them out loud. i end up resorting to metaphor because it hurts so bad. i want to cut again, but it won't do me any good because the pain will never go away.


The pain will go, but I know it doesn't feel as it will ever.

I suspect that you have kept this pain locked away while you 'got on with your life' and that 'worked' to keep the pain away. It is now coming out all at once and this is overwhelming and agonising.

Sitting with you in the turmoil.

I totally understand.  The nightmares keep me awake all  night too. 

The days get more difficult to get through, the more days there is no sleep. 

be gentle with yourself.  this is a process

be safe


Feb 07 2014 12:23 PM

thanks both of you :)

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