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banging on the door

Posted by whodatninja , 06 February 2014 · 125 views

i hate it when my family knocks so damn hard on my door. i jump 3 thousand feet. they wonder why i'm jumpy. they say they knock loud because i have headphones in or i'm a hard sleeper. then they bitch about me always being naked and having the space heater on blast to the max. fuck why can't i be left alone? why do they keep checking on me? i'm alive. i hadn't said i was going to kill myself. i hadn't done anything wrong. why won't they leave me alone? i swear they're plotting to send me back to the hospital. i don't want to go there. i have to pretend i'm normal. i have to pretend everything's fine, despite how shitty tired i feel. krishna help me i hope they don't send me back to the hospital. i can't deal with that right now. it's already bad enough i'm dealing with nightmares and flashbacks since i admitted to my t monday about that incident. it's been a long week. i can't breathe. krishna help me.

Feb 06 2014 02:19 PM

:) i appreciate it

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