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Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 29 views

as long as I'm here the chronic pain will never stop. it will always be "in my head" and I'm just being "difficult" for no other reason than to have others "feel sorry for me". everyone can fuck off and kick rocks. this is the lousy thanks I get for finally sucking up and reaching out and stop lying to myself and wanting to deal with this shit. rather the...


insensitive bastards

Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 24 views

my family bitching at me about my wanting to talk about what bothers me saying stupid shit like I been in therapy all these years I should be cured by now. I smiled and said through gritted teeth they just want to medicate my problems away and not listen. they said I should just take my medicines and stop complaining so much. I said sure I'll stop saying...


hurting badly

Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 26 views

it really hurt my feelings when my t said I was causing my own problems and I'm acting like I just like wallowing in shit and refuse to move forward. I told that assclown that the reason I'm talking about it is to work out these feelings and deal with it not get shot down. I've lost faith in other people. now that I see they just want me to be artificiall...


highly annoyed

Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 38 views

t said I'm being obsessive about my problems and the CSA in my past and that I should stop drinking and let the medicines do it's job. I told him fine I won't say shit and he can kick rocks. if my wanting to deal with the trauma that's adversely affecting my life is being obsessive then why did I bother bringing it up? he's making me regret saying anythin...



Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 21 views

t thinks I'm depressed due to my drinking again. I told him that wasn't the case but his mind is made up. it feels like dealing with my mother all over again. he's telling me to let it go etc basically all the things I hate to hear that should be banned. I doubt anyone will listen or give two shits because I've been labeled notoriously difficult and nobod...



Posted by whodatninja , 25 February 2014 · 29 views

talked to t today and he irritated with me saying i brought my problems on myself. I want to punch him in the neck. it didn't help that someone in the office wearing the cologne I hate and I fled. he's annoyed with me and at this point he can kick rocks. he thinks I'm messed up in the head due to my drinking and wants me to stop and keep taking the drugs...

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February 2014


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