my crazy life
This will be my first christmas as a gender-confused multiple trying to heal from my childhood.
This will be my first christmas as Jason, as a he , although I'm not expecting my parents to call me either....
I don't know if I can handle this
I have to deal with my problems from my childhood AND being trans AND living on my own is harder for me because of my aspergers
that I still manage to pass my classes is pretty awesome
yet you still tell me I'm not trying hard enough
you tell me I'm not studying enough
you get upset that I'm not getting As in my biology class- I don't th...
the fact that I feel like a boy is invisible
they can't see how much being called "she" hurts me
my friends at college are starting to see a boy , they think I'm FTM
this feels a million times better then being seen as a girl
but the truth is still invisible
I am not just one gender because I am not just one person...
I'm excited to meet all the other students
maybe I'll actually fall in love with a girl who also loves me -that would be pretty new for me
I don't know what to do about the girl from brain camp who kept calling things gay
I've pretty much given up on labels not only for my sexuality but for my gender
I want to be "out" but...
I keep seeing his face in my mind
I keep wondering what was going through his mind that day when he took his own life
I never even knew he was in pain
he seemed so happy and popular
but I've learned that everything isn't always as it seems
Maybe if I knew, if someone knew how he was feeling he could have been...