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Why?

Posted by angelica1966 , 17 January 2014 · 94 views

Why is it after all these years that I can still feel them?
Why do they invade my nights and my days?
I am consumed daily, it seems, by such monstrosity.
I must, however, somehow be in the now...
Wife, mom, friend and the like...but I feel like such a fraud.
I thought I was successful in life...years away from all the darkness...
Constantly though, the da...


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Intimacy

Posted by angelica1966 , 14 January 2014 · 85 views

You ask what frightens me...
I answer, "Intimacy."

To me...
Intimacy is sharing...
sharing from that deep, dark secret place.

Intimacy is eye contact...
an outsider's way into the hidden places of my soul.

Intimacy is touch...
though an innate craving to belong,
to be part of something...
of someone...
it is mysterious...
confusing...
my prison...

Int...


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How do you cope...?

Posted by angelica1966 , 13 January 2014 · 81 views

I was listening to a radio station that I normally do not follow. It played some songs from my past and one particular song triggered me. How do you cope with the overwhelming memories, emotions, feelings and the like? Is there a way to truly feel safe? It is challenging for me to see "an end", and I know there is one, but right now, it is not in my near...


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I Have to Dream...

Posted by angelica1966 , 12 January 2014 · 73 views

You ask me how I am ---

I don't know what to say...
to feel...
to think...
to believe...
to trust...

I find myself in tears --- daily...lately...
more times than I care to number.

I am entrenched...
imprisoned...
in a place
from where I cannot be dislodged...consumed...for now...

Though surrounded by people
who may care who I am and why I am
I cannot...


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"Here in This Place" (song by me)

Posted by angelica1966 , 09 January 2014 · 102 views

HERE IN THIS PLACE
from a place of brokenness...to the beginnings of my journey of healing...

VERSE 1
Lord, here I am...so alone...so afraid.
My life's bared before You...as if You didn't know.
My heart enters mourning over what's just occurred.
My spirit...calls out to You...and You find me here...
You find me...here in this place.

VERSE 2
My heart is...





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