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Back at university. First night nightmare.

Posted by Kore , 27 January 2014 · 82 views

Trigger warning...
I got back to school yesterday. My wife and I unpacked and took a nap, and got some dinner at the cafeteria. Then we spent some time together watching TV and relaxing. I prayed to my higher power that I would get some sleep tonight...
Well, yes, I got some sleep, but I had a weird panic attack/nightmare.
I am in a car, dri...


Just some thoughts

Posted by Kore , 25 January 2014 · 82 views

I have been having a really hard time finding motivation lately. I do not even want to get out of bed. I do not fall asleep until 4 or 6 in the morning, but I will sleep until right before my wife gets off of work and try to make it look like I have not been in bed all day. There are so many things I need to get done, and want to do before I go back to un...


Feeling really down...

Posted by Kore , 17 January 2014 · 91 views

On Feb. 2nd it will be 6 years since the abuse stopped. I have been really down lately and I think that has something to do with it. I feel so bad for my wife, and my friends because I have been a Debby Downer. I always get depressed and low around this time of year. I am hoping this will pass and I can get back to my perky self. I just feel like I am stu...


Hindsight is 20/20 *Trigger*

Posted by Kore , 06 January 2014 · 113 views

So this is going to be a little gross and triggering... Bodily functions and an*l r*pe.

Looking back at my childhood I was always sick, wanting to stay home from school. It was mostly digestive. I have so many memories of telling my mom that something was wrong when I was trying to go to the bathroom, and her taking me to the doctor. I was always constip...


Feeling Light

Posted by Kore , 02 January 2014 · 135 views

I have never thought I would be able to be open and honest with anyone about my past abuse. I was very surprised that I have been accepted by my wife and she is not disgusted with me. I feel so light, and free. I feel so accepted. I just want to shout that "I am not broken and disgusting!" I have never in my life felt like this before. I feel so good. I a...

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