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Day 51 Happy Thoughts (Pride and Joy)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 30 January 2014 · 192 views

Jan. 30, 2014 (Countdown Part II: 14 days to gynecologic exam):
I have felt a bizarre mixture of emotions today, mainly an amalgam I couldn't describe. But, as evening pushes toward bedtime I realize two of the feelings are pride, and joy. I am proud of myself for making it through the appointment. I am joyful for the support of everyone here....


Preparing for the Gynecologic Exam (Updated 2/3/14)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Healing Work, Gynecology 30 January 2014 · 266 views

Jan. 30, 2014, and Feb. 3, 2014
While I still have this in mind, I want to use this post to keep track of ideas for the physical exam.
I need to voice how I'm feeling as I enter the exam room.
Maybe I can ask them to remind me I am safe and I'm not in that room where it happened.
I think I really want the doctor to tell me she promises I...


Day 51: The Gynecologist Consultation

Posted by intrepidshe , in Gynecology, Healing Work 30 January 2014 · 243 views

Jan. 30, 2014 (Countdown Part II: 14 days to gynecologic exam):
FinallyHere gave me a miraculous insight today: although the experience was difficult, I was able to describe what happened, which means I remained present! I'm so grateful to you, FinallyHere, for pointing that out to me!

I made it through the appointment today....

About Intrepid She

This is a moderated PUBLIC blog. This blog is a therapeutic tool I am using to help me get over my fear of doctors (which is made difficult by a history of abuse by them) to learn to grieve, and ultimately to integrate my dis-integrated heart.


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To the many others walking your own version of this path, I wish you well on your journey. -Intrepid


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