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Day 237 & 238: Can't Write; Can't Face This Memory

Posted by intrepidshe , in Healing Work 05 August 2014 · 227 views

Aug. 4 & 5, 2014 Intrepid Age = 165-166 Days
I have a memory I'm processing right now I just can't face writing yet. It's not that it relates to something "worse" than other things that happened to me. But, god, I'm deeply sickened by it. I just can't face saying the words out loud, in so much as writing them here represents that to me.
Maybe tomorrow, maybe not for a few more days.

Take your time honey, be gentle with yourself and with Little Intrepid. It's not good to hold things in but it's not good to force things out either. You don't need to stick to anyone's timeline. 

Aug 05 2014 10:18 PM

Your pace.  Your time.  I support you.  I believe in your process.



It will come out when you are ready for it to. Don't push, don't rush. You need never share it here if you feel it puts too much pressure on you. Just 'be'. :hug:
Take your time. Don't force it. Be gentle with yourself....

What they said, and hugs. Sending you a huge bubble of protection and safety to just sit within. And silent, loving presence.

Aug 07 2014 09:52 PM

Thanks everyone. I'm ready to write now. Whew. It was incredibly difficult to get to this point.

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This is a moderated PUBLIC blog. This blog is a therapeutic tool I am using to help me get over my fear of doctors (which is made difficult by a history of abuse by them) to learn to grieve, and ultimately to integrate my dis-integrated heart.


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