Day 236: Experiencing Anxiety from Lack of Information
A week to go until the self-catheterization appointment. I spoke briefly with the ObGyn and asked her what the appointment will involve. The answer wasn't sufficiently detailed for me. It didn't tell me anything more than I know already. I was looking for more of a step-by-step description. Will anyone else touch me? How will we decide the size of the catheter to use? Will they explain to me and send me on my own to try it out?
Somehow the answers matter to me a great deal. With the pelvic exam I pretty much knew what to expect because I had a few of them before. But with this, I just don't know.
I'm feeling dizzy now writing this. The anxiety is pretty intense. I don't think I can say anything more about it tonight. I'd better log off. Have a good night/day everyone!