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Day 215: Feeling Overwrought

Posted by intrepidshe , in Healing Work 13 July 2014 · 390 views

July 13, 2014 Intrepid Age = 143 Days 
 
I don't understand why some days I feel fine, other days joyful, and other days bereft/hopeless. It's like the Three Little Bears today. I like that metaphor. Baby Bear is Little Intrepid. When Goldilocks tests Baby Bear's porridge, it's just right. She also finds Baby Bear's bed just right. I like the idea of everything for Little Intrepid being just right.
 
Another loss
to rage
to deny
to resist
to cry
 
Futility pleads
why
Why?
WHY?!
 
Once precious
lost to time
 
I don't have in me the ability tonight to write anything else. Today the bed is too hard, the porridge is too hot. I will work my coping strategies and go to bed at a decent hour. I have an early appointment tomorrow.
 
Even though I'm clearly not in a good place, I promise won't do anything harmful. If I feel the urge, I will reach out.



Its ok to have bad days. We try and have more good than bad. You are doing amazng, no writing is fine. Hoping your apt is great..... hang in there you have a lot going on

Hm. Not so good. Sorry you are in such a painful place. Please do reach out, if needed.

 

You are still precious, but it was unseen.

 

Retreat to a safe place, to safe arms, immerse yourself in the love you know exists now for you, and hang on.

 

Sitting with you, watching over you.

I like your Three Little Bears metaphor too - it's extremely apt. :hug: :hug:

Hoping today is a better day for you.

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