Day 178: Part 2
I tried to ignore this but it is nagging at me.
I am worried about seeing my Portland Friend (PF) tomorrow. I am staying the night with them. I plan to read my f-ing mother letter to her. I don't know what will come of this. I shouldn't be afraid, but I am. Even though we have been friends for more than 25 years, this is a big step that could change that friendship. What will she think of me? How will I react? I have never been emotional in front of her. Could this harm the friendship?
My brain says no. But Little Intrepid doesn't want to risk losing PF. She has been a constant through everything. She means so much to me. I love her.
Gosh, and I need her too!
She has been a stabilizing force in my life. She has been a touchstone. She has helped me find my way when I have been lost. She has simply walked beside me no matter what crazy path I have taken.
It mystifies me. She just loves me too. Will she still if she sees how am I am now? Heaven help me I am going to find out tomorrow night.