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Day 70: Commitments to Me for the Next 24 Hours

Posted by intrepidshe , in Healing Work, Gynecology 18 February 2014 · 162 views

Feb. 18, 2014 (Countdown Part II-rewind:  18 hours to gynecologic exam):
For the next 24 hours: 
  • I will feel what I feel: afraid, proud, worried, angry, hopeful . . .
  • I will be safe, because the plan is good and I have permission to do what I need to feel safe.
  • I will exercise and eat well. (I have been doing really well with this lately.)
  • I will go to work and keep busy the first half of the day.
  • I will go home and take care of myself after the appointment.
  • I will allow tears if they come. (I kinda hope they do. And, I hope I'll even rejoice if I cry, for it will be the first time about all of this.)
  • I will not set expectations on how I 'should' respond.
  • I will allow my needs to take precedence.
  • I will get as far as I can with the appointment tomorrow and not push myself into a panic attack.
  • I will forgive myself if I do have a panic attack.
  • I will reach out for help if I need it.
  • I will not SI, or put myself in hazardous situations that risk injury.
  • I will treat myself with gentle care.
Thanks everyone! My fingers are crossed that the appointment will happen tomorrow (not be cancelled again). I will post afterward as soon as I'm feeling able.
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So wonderful, intrepid!  I'm so glad you've drawn up your own plan and have drawn it up with so much self-knowledge.  Wow, that takes a lot of great work!

Feb 19 2014 10:46 AM
With you. :cuppa:
Feb 19 2014 06:37 PM

Thanks you guys! I made it through and it was OK. I am going to write today's post about it as a letter to the doctor.

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