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Day 38 Happy Thoughts (State of Independence)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things, Crying 18 January 2014 · 221 views

Jan. 17, 2014 (Countdown: 13 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
I was brought up with a strong religious belief system. However, I don't believe in religion anymore. But I do still feel strong chords of spirituality. Religious music is very stirring to me. Perhaps because of something specific that happened in my childhood.
 
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Day 37 Happy Thoughts (Song of the Day)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 16 January 2014 · 155 views

Jan. 16, 2014 (Countdown: 14 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
So often lately I have had songs running through my head as I've been working on the blog. Well, in truth, I have songs running through my head pretty much all the time. I often break out into song during my work day because I can't contain what's in my head.http://www.pandys.org...


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Day 36 Happy Thoughts (Thank You For Hearing, For Loving, For Seeing, For Not Hurting Me)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 15 January 2014 · 359 views

Jan. 15, 2014 (Countdown: 15 days to gynecologist consultation):
I had a bit of a difficult process today to work through, but now, a few hours later, I feel better. I feel resolved and calm.
I am feeling incredibly inspired and thankful today because of what I'm learning from others here.
I am wishing and hoping someone who has t...


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Day 35 Happy Thoughts (Or Healing Work? and Your Signed Cast)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 14 January 2014 · 189 views

Jan. 14, 2014 (Countdown: 16 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
I think it's possible today that my Healing Work posting was also my Happy Thoughts posting. My healing work was pretty positive. I'm happy about that!
 
Another thing I'm happy about today is the metaphor of "signing casts." In our society, when someone breaks their arm or...


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Day 34 Happy Thoughts (The Beatles)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 13 January 2014 · 176 views

Jan. 13, 2014 (Countdown: 17 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
My Happy Thoughts tonight are all about music again . . . that's what I get for referencing a Beatles song in my Healing Work posting! Here are Beatles songs for which I am eternally thankful (ok, just a few 'cuz I could probably list 20 or more):
 
Norwegian Wood - 'cuz it...


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Day 33 Happy Thoughts (Thankful For)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 12 January 2014 · 209 views

Jan. 12, 2014 (Countdown: 18 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
I am feeling thankful today. I took it pretty easy and spent the day around the house. I decided my "Happy Thoughts" today are things for which I'm thankful.
The community here in Pandy's. I have been able to say things I have kept locked behind a wall of shame and I have never f...


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Day 32 Happy Thoughts (You Never Know What a Day Might Have in Store)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 12 January 2014 · 126 views

Jan. 11, 2014 (Countdown: 19 days to gynecologist consultation):
Really enjoyed the playoff game today. I was rooting for the Seahawks. I ended up watching it after it was over. It was really great to watch the game and relax this evening.
I was having a bit of a rough day when something terrible happened to other people outside my house. There was...


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Day 31 Happy Thoughts (A Half Dozen and A Song)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 10 January 2014 · 140 views

Jan. 10, 2014 (Countdown: 20 days to gynecologist consultation):
Today when I talked about the upcoming gynecologic consultation with my therapist I didn't feel sick to my stomach. I felt like I have a plan and if I follow the plan I'll be OK, even though it will be scary.
I felt more in my skin today, less anxious.
I laughed a lot at work today with my c...


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Day 30 Happy Thoughts (actually, music and refuge)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 09 January 2014 · 179 views

Jan. 9, 2014 (Countdown: 21 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
The word "sonorous" came out when I was writing my daily healing entry today. It made me think about songs that are healing, which made me think of a song called "City of Refuge," written by Abigail Washburn. I realized, Pandy's is my city of refuge.
 
http://www.youtube.com/wat...


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Day 29 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 09 January 2014 · 146 views

Jan. 8, 2014 (Countdown: 22 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
I posted part of my story in the My Story forum (Chapter 1: The Gynecologist) just now. It took me weeks to write it. There's more to the story, but I think the posting is the center of my story. I feel surprisingly ok. Not distressed. The work up to this point in p...


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Day 28 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 08 January 2014 · 169 views

Jan. 7, 2014 (Countdown: 23 days to gynecologist consultation):
I went to a musical tonight and had a great time!
I feel pretty darn tired and I think I'll sleep better tonight. I slept almost decently last night.
I ready Mary Fijalkovich's posting from today and again found affirming, sanity-making words that help me feel less ashamed, and more confident...


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Day 27 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 07 January 2014 · 126 views

Jan. 6, 2014 (Countdown: 24 days to gynecologist consultation):
 
I received a card today that made me laugh out loud several times. Oh, I do so love to laugh.
I am thankful for the joy that infuses my life. I am in a joyful and safe place for the first time in my life. I believe that is the reason I find myself on this healing path. I'm finally saf...


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Day 26 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 05 January 2014 · 144 views

Jan. 5, 2014 (Countdown: 25 days to gynecologist consultation):
I took it pretty easy today. Had several really good meals. Kept it low key for the day.
I feel tired and I think I'll sleep tonight.
I very much enjoyed time with my family today.
I am leaning into the compassion around me.



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Day 25 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 05 January 2014 · 143 views

Jan. 4, 2014 (Count down: 26 days to gynecologic consult)
 
As I have been doing healing work today, an old movie is playing in the other room (no one is watching it). Normally I would turn off the TV if no one was watching it. It's insistent blaring is jarring to me. But, today, there has been something comforting about the familiarity of it, knowin...


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Day 24 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 03 January 2014 · 232 views

Jan. 3, 2013 (Count down: 27 days to gynecologic consultation)
 
I have been truly blessed by many people in my life. Far more people have been kind, supportive, encouraging, and lots of fun than have been hurtful to me. It's got to be at least a 10,000 to 1 ratio. Although I'm struggling of late to deal with that 0.01%, I am appr...


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Day 23 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 02 January 2014 · 147 views

Jan. 2, 2014 (Count down: 28 days to gynecologic consultation)
 
I typed 2014 correctly for the first time since it turned 2014. http://www.pandys.or...fault/winky.gif
I am grateful for Pat Benatar. She wrote, recorded, and performs a song that made a world of difference for me. Her song opened my mind to the truth of...


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Day 22 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 01 January 2014 · 148 views

Jan. 1, 2014 (Count down: 29 days to gynecologic consultation)
 
Bit by bit I am telling my story.
It was nice to have the day off today.
The weather was beautiful here today, and has been beautiful for a couple weeks.
I have interesting and fun work to do this week. I'm looking forward to it.
I have appreciated the responses here in Pandora. Th...


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Day 20 Happy Thoughts (no posting)

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 01 January 2014 · 134 views

I didn't feel like posting happy thoughts last night.


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Day 19 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 01 January 2014 · 124 views

Dec. 29, 2013
Saw a great movie today, really enjoyed the writing of the dialogue. I love it when movies are really smart and believable while revealing the underbelly of human nature.



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Day 18 Happy Thoughts

Posted by intrepidshe , in Happy Things 01 January 2014 · 119 views

Dec. 28, 2013
I got a good night’s sleep last night.
I was in a positive mood today, more engaged with others.







About Intrepid She

This is a moderated PUBLIC blog. This blog is a therapeutic tool I am using to help me get over my fear of doctors (which is made difficult by a history of abuse by them) to learn to grieve, and ultimately to integrate my dis-integrated heart.

 

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To the many others walking your own version of this path, I wish you well on your journey. -Intrepid

 

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